relapse again

hardly 24 hrs since my last relapse and i did it again.it sucks to be this person,i don't like this loneliness and this bad a situation....noone to talk to i feel dead.literally dead.

 

completed day 1 of nofap and concluded that not looking/looking at porn is actually an option that we always have its just our decision to to give in to the impulse or to take back a step and think about what we're doing and its long term consequences. its just some hours and i feel better already, currently aiming for 10 days. set an aim too high-you get demoralized, set an aim too low-you get overconfident. both can lead to a relapse and are unhealthy for the psyche. I definitely have improved my billiards game in the last 2 weeks, for the first time today i could devote sufficient time to it and got quite a few pots. what i was trying to do recently was go on a dopamine detox, i.e i was trying to quit everything at once which i realized is not a good idea. Dopamine detox along with nofap is something extremely difficult and i believe should not be practiced in the initial stages of the journey as our brain is accustomed to turn to porn for relief, and it causes a complete dopamine dray all of a sudden. i will try the wean off method for now, that is to reduce the dopamine intake gradually and day by day,so as to not cause sudden and strong withdrawal symptoms.