honestly, I can't keep my triggers from, well, triggering me. Sometimes I think, 'maybe I can just watch a little porn and all will be well' but then I fall into the PMO cycle and I feel completely and utterly finished in my fight against this disgusting addiction. I say it's disgusting because it is so unnatural. It's supposed to be two people making love, not a teen watching two people/one person getting paid to have sex. I'm fed up with my head. Self harm has appeared like a ghost in the night. Oh how I hate everything.