Relapse on first 34 Day Streak (& thoughts)

Hey Fapstronauts,

I was continuing my longest streak, easy as hell with no thoughts of watching porn and what not, until a few days ago, where I edged in the shower (wanted to test sensitivity and let it get a hold of me). Searching around I saw that edging was considered a relapse, and so I thought it'd be best to be honest to myself and to honour Hard Mode by resetting my counter today

During these 30 days, I can confirm I've noticed a significant increase in concentration, as well as my ability to sleep a good nights rest and wake feeling fresh, rather than groggy. I had achieved a wet dream on my 4th day, and morning woods from the 7th day onwards (almost every single day after that).

Aside from all that, I did not reset my counter during two instances with my gf: where she wanted to have sex (I have PIED btw), and so we tried anyways and as I was erect during foreplay, it went soft when it came to the time to PIV.. this is when I realised that though I am achieving many of the benefits and recovering on the way, it definitely wasn't enough.

One more key note is that after edging, I found the next morning and few days afterwards that I felt like shit and started waking up feeling groggy once again and that this thought of my relapse had always been on my mind.

Now that I understand the effects of edging, etc., I am going to stay away from that shit and embark on my quest to cure my PIED! I miss sex with my gf Legit the best sex ever lmao, #FUCKPORN.


Keep it going strong fellas

 

Update: I fucked up. My brain thought: I technically relapsed though I didn’t O, might as well just PMO before starting my next streak..

Definitely not worth and porn just didnt feel right this, fuck that.