I Relapsed 4 times in Past 2 days.I'm Unable to control Urges.When They Hit me,My Whole Identity Changes.And as the time passes,My Emotion to Quit PMO Weakens.I'm in Serious Complex Condition now. I Seem to Forget Everything when i'm having Urge.It Feels Way more Comfortable just to lay on bed and masturbate prone.Why Does this Changes so Much Quickly. -It Hurts when Teachers Scold me,It Hurts When I Get Low Marks,It Hurts When I lose my Identity among Toppers,It Hurts When I'm A Mediocre,It hurts to see Other Students Getting Past me in Ranks,It Hurts to See So Much Work Pending,It Hurts to see My Goals flow away,It Hurts to see Opportunities come so Close and Get Away,It Hurts to See Time Ticking Away,It Hurts to See me Procrastinating,It Hurts to See me Relapse,It Hurts to Send Message to My AP,and Telling the Whole Story,It Hurts to Post A Forum After A Relapse here,It Hurts to See Other People Progress and see Me at Zero After ever few Days,IT HURTS to See My Love Story ending Before it Starts,IT HURTS TO SEE ME BREAKING A PROMISE MADE TO MY LOVE.MAN,IT HURTS SO MUCH,BUT I STILL,STILL,AND STILL watch porn and masturbate,just to escape these above guilts,and I'm in this Cycle Again,and I'm Getting worse and Worse.I Don't know,but It Feels like I have a Fear of Working Hard,Living My Dreams. -I Don't Smoke. -I Don't Drink. -I Don't Abuse Anyone. -I Don't Say F**k,or Bi**h etc. in my Sentences. -I Don't flirt Anyone. -I'm Loyal to My Love. -I Have Dreams For My Country. -I Want to see Everybody Happy. -I Can't Watch Any Crime happening in front of me. -I have Dreams of World Peace. -I Want to Make a Love Story,never Forgotten. -I Don't Believe in Casts,Color.I Never Criticize or Tease anyone because of his color. Then,Why? Why do i face Such Problems?