Relapse without even trying to fight back

What would you do if you got an urge, a pretty strong one. You know you would not want to go through another relapse but you're just depressed or tired or lazy or whatever that you just want some joy in your life that you lack. Then you proceed to watch porn and you get aroused. However halfway through you're no longer having an erection and you have one opportunity to leave the computer behind and retain everything you have left. But you didn't. You rubbed it out and after that only felt shame and regret and guilt and all sorts of negative emotions begin to overwhelm you.

Your subconscious is screaming for you to go to the right path, but you are blinded by porn. It is truly a vicious cycle, the more addicted you are, the more blinded you are by porn and the more of a slave you are to porn.

Don't be that slave. Be its master. Banish it.