Relapse

nothings wrong with you. whats wrong is the people that dont accept you as you are. i do nofap because i was completely shy to even go outdoors not because of getting a girlfriend

 

Sorry to hear your feelings, I feel the same way about being single. Life is just like that. But focus on things you can change - maybe try talking to more guys you know or build up some hobbies. It's a numbers game.

 

Why are you lashing out at your family? Is it from being angry about being single?
Don't hate yourself. First step in the right direction is finding your inner balance.

 

I don't trust therapists, but in your case it might be helpful. You need to understanl what is the root cause of your predicament. I don't know anything about you but I'd bet you had a bad childhood. Otherwise you wouldn't be lashing at your family. Not only that but they should be actually supporting you and giving advice about relationships. Whatever it is, please ruminate over it and advise an action plan which will bring you the least amount of despair... At your age you should have some sort of community to provide support, otherwise you'll go crazy. Humans are social animals after all.

 

Yea I know how you feel. I felt lonely today because I really want a boyfriend (never had one) and would love to have real sex. I've never lashed out at a person but I was kinda violent towards objects today while cooking. I would just love to have a boyfriend and I kinda get jealous when I see my friends talking about their boyfriends.