Relapse

I just relapsed a few minutes ago and tbh I don't feel as shitty as I usually do, I didn't watch porn I just used a provocative picture. Anyways the reason I'm writing this is because I'm realizing why I relapsed. I've been really stressed lately, and I have a lot of stuff on my plate, but this was manageable. The problem started today when this Girl from work started testing the waters with me. I'm a very confident guy, and I don't like letting people control me but this was not the case a few months ago. I was raised by narcissistic and controlling parents and so I was raised to be a pushover until I finally learned to fight for myself. Anyways when your raised in invironments like that you can end up unknowingly attracting the wrong kind of people, this is what happened with this girl. I let some of her actions slide but today she decided to see just how much I would tolerate from her and I showed her I'm not her bi*ch. The whole experience left me angry and pissed of because I already hate working there, now I have to deal with this bi*ch. The thing that pisses me off is this wouldn't have happened if I spoke up earlier, and I knew I should have spoken up but I thought I was being paranoid. I'm still angry and now I feel bad I relapsed just because of a stupid girl. Honestly I might just quit the job altogether because I'm not happy with what I have there. Does anyone here deal with people like this, they try to bring you down, or test your self confidence any way they can, they try to manipulate you and tell you how amazing you are so you can forget how much of piece if shit they are.