relapse

I struggled with an heavy Porn+masturbation-problem for 6 years. I had constantly brain fog, noone respected me and i dropped out of school.
Since then i succesfully got on my first nofap-track, after years of failed attemts.
I was able to stay hardmode on track for 6 month. I had no more brainfog, wanted to stay always active, had more energy, people perceived me in a positive way and i was was much more kind and patient in the relationship with my parents.
Then one day i was alone in my room and decided to smoke one. Unfortenately i relapsed because i was high and horny (really bad combo). After my relapse i felt how my dopamin receptors took damage. The next day i felt like shit. I decided to start another nofap journey and got back on the track for one month. Then i was again alone in my room and decided to get drunk. I got really horny and relapsed again.
Since then i tried to get back on the track but it was unavailingly. I fall back into the Porn and masturbation-habbit.
Now i started all over again and im currently one month back on the track.
I suggest everyone who wants to do nofap to be very cautions about consuming drugs when you are alone.
Wish me luck!

 

thanks for your answer!