RELAPSED After 307 DAYS

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by PMO addict1, Jun 11, 2021.

  1. PMO addict1

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    I fapped today after 307 days...Fapped twice within 3 hours.. But not to hard core porn.... But to P substitue video..... .. I Relapsed Because I couldnt handle PAWS( idk if that was PAWS or not) ... I was severely depressed since start, even before starting when I was binging hard..... I was having severe social & general anxiety and stress All these things think if I relapse maybe these thing will get better... So I fapped , because It couldnt get worse from where I was.....I fapped 2 times in 3 hours.. But going back on streak without binging for long.. , I Dont think fapping twice after 300 days gonna erase my progress ( Even though I dont felt I progressed at all)
     
  2. Life Project

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    First of all, congrats on 307 days brother! You went to a place not many have gone, so much respect to you- it takes a true warrior to get to that point! Good for you for not binging. That is a rabbit hole difficult to get out of and will reverse a lot of brain progress you earned. 3 hours of pmo does not erase 307 days of progress. I bet the next long streak you get on will be the one that will set you free. You're so close! But in terms of PAWS, I had a lot of the symptoms you mentioned when I went 240 days. I was still battling brain fog, anxiety, etc even on those latter days of my streak. Like you, I was frustrated and eventually gave in. It's important to know that we're going to go through PAWS on this journey. I've read countless testimonies of people experiencing symptoms of withdrawals up to and even over a year. So it's going to take time. At this point, I've prepared myself mentally that PAWS will be present for the first year. That's the goal- to get to the 1 year mark, then go from there. Patience and persistence amidst tribulation is the key. We got this- make sure to do whatever it takes to get past the first few days here. Let me know if you need any motivation or encouraging words.
     
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  3. modern milarepa

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    Damn bro, never relapse ever again remember that

    Exactly, at least you know there is never a good reason to relapse ever again

    Be strong
     
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  4. PMO addict1

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    Thanks you...I also wish that its become my last relapse and next streak make me free.....Yes next few days are really challenging... my brain is tricking me to relapse again all the time.... I have to go through it , This depression and social anxiety is Stressing me alot... I cant do anything due to it and cant go anywhere :(
     
  5. Brazilian Guy

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    After 307 days you have a new lifestyle, stick to it! Your mind is healing, you are an inspiration to us all dude, believe me.

    Just stand up fast and keep on working on a new streak.

    Actually the flatline is a blessing, it helps a lot the healing process… but I agree that it can make us anxious sometimes.

    Today my flatline ended, so I just need to avoid the triggers at any cost.

    I’d love to say that I reached the day 300 as you did, bro.
     
  6. Virat961634

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    I relapsed after 15 days PMO
     
  7. PMO addict1

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    How many days are u in.?? Lets race to 300 together
     
  8. Ciandolista

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    Your result is very very good, congratulations to you bro.
     
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  9. Your progress is not lost. Don't beat yourself up for that.
    Return to track and I believe this was your last relapse !
    Be strong !
     
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  10. PMO addict1

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    I have binged hard , I fapped 10 times today.. :( I again having Intense anxiety and brain fog
     
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  11. Brazilian Guy

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    14 days today, after a 60-day streak. Let's do it, dude!

    I regret relapsing, but I took lessons from it. I finally realised how bad is PMO for my hormonal system.

    it's like drinking poison. Brain fog comes back instantly. Depression, lack of energy, irritability. That's really toxic.

    Despite the relapse, I'm sure your hormonal system is healthier after a 300 day streak. So your mind, your behavior, your awareness. Your real self is each time stronger.

    I have a question for you: along the streak have you developed new habits, like sports, reading, meditation, hobbies etc.? Those activities are really important to me. I guess that quitting PMO demands engaging in manly habits - in the end, NoFap is about turning the kid into the man.

    (hope you don't mind my pooor english :-D)
     
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