I feel like I want to burn my dick, or brain, or something! I'm not about to give up since giving up isn't a choice when you're fighting something that's never going to leave you alone anyway. But really, I feel fucked and someday I am literally going to cut off my dick if this persists! After 40 days on hard mode! Can you believe it? And it wasn't even necessary, nor was it my libido or something so promising I couldn't resist. It was just me! I realize now this whole thing was never about libido per se. I've been seeing hot pictures of women all throughout my reboot, and guess what? It's never made me feel like I want to relapse. In fact, it's made me appreciate beauty even more and dissociate it from porn or wanking or orgasming or whatever my sick brain wants! What happened is that I came across a picture of what is either a man with boobs or a woman with a dick (who cares?), and I did exactly what a lad with porn induced sexual OCD shouldn't have done; I paid a lot of attention under the pretext that I was just doing regular exposure therapy! I didn't even like the damned picture, but the "confusing" sexual cue put me in the same "mood" as porn (my favorite is lesbian porn because it's more "exotic"), and before I knew it my mind was on "porno mode" and I relapsed. I'm never going to pay attention to confusing sexual cues from now on, they're not even sexy, but for some reason (porn and OCD I guess) the brain can use that which is not sexy to draw you into your favorite porn scenes!