Relapsed after 60 days of abstinence

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by ForgiveMeLord, Oct 29, 2017.

How many wet dreams did you have per month during your reboot?

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  9. More than 7/Month

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  1. ForgiveMeLord

    ForgiveMeLord Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys,

    I have an announcement to make. I relapsed after 60 days of NoFap NoPMO but with wet dreams. On the 60th day of Nofap (59 days completed), I had a wet dream and couldn't help myself cum into the dream. I felt guilty after waking up and had this feeling that I've relapsed. I hate wet dreams. That's why I will do every possible thing to avoid them from now on. The chaser effect of the wet dream made me desire an orgasm badly. I lied to myself that I'll PMO without ejaculating, like those tantra practitioners, which of course didn't happen. I invented a bullshit excuse to fool myself into watching Porn: Let's masturbate so I can practice the orgasming while asleep without ejaculation.

    Another excuse would be that I've had 4-5 wet dreams during my 60 day reboot. I must repeat: I HATE WET DREAMS. I don't want them happening. But most of the times I just can't control myself while asleep. Solutions on banishing wet dreams forever from some experienced Fapstronaut would be highly appreciated.

    Anyway, I started my relapse with:
    looking at some tumblr photos
    surfing on Chaturbate
    finding "decent" porn on pornhub
    After I've watched the whole shit, I just felt disgusted. I felt the lie. I known I lied to myself. I promise, I am never going to watch this shit again. I don't feel the need anymore it was just a lie to myself about orgasming. I am not anymore a porn addict, now I must also defeat sex addiction. I don't want to orgasm until I have a wife and a reason to. It's not necessary. It's the deception of pleasure, short-lasting fleeting pleasure.

    So, a new journey starts. I ask God for forgiveness. But a lesson has been learned. One powerful lesson:
    Pleasure is a lie. It's short, passing pleasure that has no real enjoyment in it. If you have a wet dream, if you feel like resetting your counter, just do it without fapping. I urge you if you think of relapse because of a wet dream, don't.
    Instead, fight the wet dreams back. Punch them in the face. Go search for "how to get rid of wet dreams" & apply ALL FUCKING STEPS. I tried too, to sleep on my back. It didn't really work out that well, I didn't sleep well. I don't care this time. From today, only sleeping naked, on my back, NO MATTER WHAT.

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    I won't let myself lied to again, satan. **** you & your wet dreams. I shall rise triumphant. Long live the Lord. Peace.
     
  2. ForgiveMeLord

    ForgiveMeLord Fapstronaut

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    Not really, I learned a precious lesson & am not addicted to porn at all anymore.
     
  3. Such Small Hands

    Such Small Hands Fapstronaut

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    That's too bad. I appreciate your resolve, though. While I've never had problems with wet dreams, I can relate to the utter disappointment of a relapse. Hang in there. You got this. Stay strong.
     
  4. James0224

    James0224 Fapstronaut

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    You have some great determination. I wish you the best on your journey to combating wet dreams. My relapses are very much like yours, one day I have a sexual dream, then a few days later I start scrolling through pornstars instagram and before I know it I am on pornhub :/
     
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    ForgiveMeLord Fapstronaut

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  6. MarinoBigFan1984

    MarinoBigFan1984 Fapstronaut

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  7. OMG I FEEL YOUR PAIN, ever since starting my journey, I've had 3 WET DREAMS THIS MONTH, and it is so HARD, I don't even need to watch porn because my subconscious is LITERALLY PORN! I even had dreams where I was masturbating, or searching up porn to watch, and I woke up feeling so guilty, as if I actually did it. I used to masturbate partly so I didn't get wet dreams, and it did work but I really think that fapping is detrimental to the human being so I will try my best to continue. You have inspired me with your post! WE CAN KEEP GOING! I'm also doing NoFap for religious reasons as well, and in my religion wet dreams aren't sinful, it is seen as a natural way your body releases its sexual energy, but I HATE THEM.
     

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