Relapsed after 8 days, i feel awful

Hi fellas. After 8 days of not even touching my little friend, i went out with friends we drank alcohol, did coce and then i compulsively watched porn and fapped 4 times in a day. Any advices to keep going? I feel i made a hole in the water. I feel weak and pathetic. I didnt even enjoy the high. All i had in mind was to stay alone and fap. No participation in talking, eventhough i was with my best friend. I was like a zombie with his eyes wide open, wakeful, and alert, but all that energy was not channeled anywhere except PMO.

 

Thanks mate. I do have activities. Mainly writting code (programming). This time i target 3 weeks. Its the time remaining until my mother and grandma leave the house, and then i will have a chance to go after a real-world girl. Should i keep my mind away from ANY sexual-related content ? Not even the thought of kissing ? I also take memodrin (aniracetam, its a nootropic) to help me focus and reduce my anxiety (Im also a Computer Science student so it helps with the assignments too)

 

Alright, going hard mode. Focus on sociability and mental connection with women. Bodily connection comes next