Hey all! It's been a tough ride. I managed to to go 96 days withou PMO on softmode. I occasionaly MO'd without P and on certain occasions I'd accidentally bump into P substitutes. It's been a roller coaster ride for sure. For days I would have no urges and all of a sudden they would pop back in. I would then try to rationalize and make up excuses to watch P but was able to overcome those urges. I've also felt the effect on my brain and my attitude without PMO, and have experienced the benefits first hand. All in all I'm very proud of what I've accomplished, this being the first time that I'm trying NoFap. I wish I could write a success story to my 90+ days but believe that I should save that for later. Unfortunately I relapsed hard today. I PMOd and watched P several times during the day. Something I'm not proud of and am noticing how quickly I fell back into that hole again. It just happens so damn quick! It's almost as if I wasn't in control of what I was doing anymore. I reset my counter and hope to make it another 90 days. Realising now how long it will take me to cure my poor little brain. I was wondering how other people's experience have been with relapsing after a solid streak? Anyway, feeling pretty shitty and down at this point. On to a fresh start. Cheers everyone!