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Relapsed, but is this a sign of progress?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Mr. Robot, May 16, 2019.

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  1. Mr. Robot

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    I rebooted for 7 days, and I was starting to feel better about myself. But at work today, those thoughts started creeping in, and they didn't stop, until it was too late and I knew that I could not wait to go home and relapse. It's hard to describe, but that point of no return where the urge takes over your brain and it's all you can think about. I relapsed hard. Hit every one of my favorite videos, PMO, back to zero.

    But... It felt different this time. The release felt great with the dopamine rush, but the experience itself seemed not as good as in the past. Almost like it wasn't as interesting anymore. Typically, when I relapse like that, I turn into a maniac for a few days and go off the deep end. "Well, the streak's already over, why not go crazy for a while". This time I just went ahead and stopped when I was done. I wonder if it means that my relapse didn't totally negate the healing from the last week.

    Now I'm going to try for two weeks and see how that goes. I won't be hard on myself if I don't make it to 14 days, but I at least need to beat the 7.
     

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