Relapsed on day 59

I just relapsed a few minutes back. On freaking day 59.

But I am not going to go hard on myself, because I feel this release was needed. I know that there would have been a wet dream if there wasn't a release.

Anyway these two months have been amazing. I rediscovered myself, I wasn't socially awkward, and my ED is totally gone.
Now what I have to do now is start all the way from the beginning.

I don't feel that bad to be honest...yes it's a bit frustrating. But it's okay.


What I have learnt from these past 59 days is that : every day is a struggle. If you want to abstain from masturbation..abstain from the catalysts.
Don't stay in your home and get bored. If you are getting bored get out of your house and hang out with your friends.
Alone time is needed..but not too much.