Relapsed to sex (trigger warning )!

Discussion in 'Problematic Sexual Behavior' started by Infinite spirit, May 12, 2019.

  1. Infinite spirit

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    Three days ago. I was on party with friends. And this hot girl kept flirting with me. I got really horny. I went to the bathroom and started stroking. I stopped myself thank God. I felt weird fapping in a public bathroom wtf. I went home quickly ..i couldn't continue the party. I barely slept that night because I was overthinking what happened.
    Next day..i decided going to the same night club and having sex with some of the ladies. It wasn't even a night club..it was a local restaurant..with some hot chicks to attract people's attention.
    I went to a girl and asked her "how much for a blowjob?". I moved with her by my friend's car to a dark place behined the trees..where she finished me .
    I can't believe I did that. This is not my morals or my viewpoint on sexual interactions.
    It's all started with that girl in the first party who kept teasing me in annoying way. I'm not used to such situations tbh.
    Now..i consider myself relapsed. And back to day one.
     
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  3. Infinite spirit

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    She works on a local restaurant close to be a night club. I spotted her. Probably most of the ladies their do such dirty things because they need money. I feel very ashamed and guilty. I didn't want to post this. But keeping it real with you guys.
     
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  4. Jake n Bake

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    You have courage to admit this.
     
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  5. Infinite spirit

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    Maybe. I'm sorry if l let anyone down. I fucked up.
     
  6. Kratos_GOW

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    As long as you understand the gravity of the situation you will do good next time. And stop feeling sorry, be better. Next time i want you to remember this. Only your goal of nofap should be your top priority. Having sex is alright in NoFap but no M. First you need to clear your head from all the sexual stuff. Mine was there for long until i saw the root and i worked on it. I am being direct here no offence but it is needed sometimes. Good luck boy
     
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  7. Infinite spirit

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    For me it's different. I don't think one should have sex Except with his spouse. I feel sorry because I used this poor girl to gratify my sexual desires . I have a moral code. I didn't stay true to myself. That's why I feel bad.
     
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  8. Jake n Bake

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    I have had similar experiences even while married. I’m lucky to still be married. She is such a forgiving angel. I know your inner pain from not following your beliefs. Forgive yourself. It’s the only way to freedom.
     
  9. Kratos_GOW

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    I understand now i want you to remember this feeling you are having right now. Because this feeling is going to stop you next time boy. You feel bad, its fine. But you repeat this again. You are going to curse yourself. Have faith in youself. Good luck
     
  10. IR254

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    Did you pay her?
     
  11. llortaton

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    Man... DON'T DO THAT, EVER-- FUCKING--- AGAIN!

    YOU COULD CATCH AN STD.

    DON'T HAVE SEX WITH A STRANGER.

    YOU'LL REGRET IT FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, IF YOU GET AN STD. ITS PROBABLY THE WORST THING ONE CAN LIVE WITH.

    ALTHOUGH, I'M 14 AND AM A VIRGIN.

    DON'T MAN! DON'T HAVE SEX UNTIL YOU KNOW THE GIRL, AND GET HER TESTED FOR STDS!
     
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  12. Infinite spirit

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    I know man. Thanks. I used Condom though.
     
  13. ClickClickBoom

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    What i don't get is why you didn't go for the hot girl who kept flirting with you
     
  14. Infinite spirit

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    Yes. Sadly.
     
  15. llortaton

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    Some STD's can pass through condom.

    Don't risk it...
    At all.
     
  16. Infinite spirit

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    What do you mean "go for"?. She wasn't my friend. She was probably drunk . I don't accept having sex this way. But unfortunately I did it next day. She triggered something in me.
     
  17. IR254

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    Oh man. Supporting prostitution isn't better than supporting porn. You can only hope, that the condom didn't fail.
     
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  18. ClickClickBoom

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    Let me get this straight, in your mind because she is not your "friend" and is "probably drunk" you don't want it nor do you even attempt it but jacking yourself in a public toilet and paying some random sex worker to blow you is perfectly OK in your book.

    You got some nice morals their son.
     
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  19. Infinite spirit

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    I don't support prostitution.she wasn't a prostitute. She is a dirty girl no doubt.. But I'm not sure if it was her first time. I offered her a lot of money (no need to mention how much) she couldn't refuse .
    I don't think she has any STD .
     
  20. Infinite spirit

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    All of that is NOT OK. Use your fucking brain. It's so obvious that I'm sad and upset that I did such horrible things.
    Keep in mind..I'm not perfect. I'm a human being. I fuck up sometimes.
     
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