Im so lonely and unloved, never had a relationship, never felt love - this hits me like a truck. Today it was my 8th day on hardmode. I was feeling really good whole morning, then in a train, i heard a girl calling with her boyfriend... And again, same old thoughts that were in my head entire life popped off - I will never felt love, i will never be loved, no girl will ever have intimate relationship with me... I came home trying to resist the pressure. Then I cracked and masturbate. I was hoping that this streak will be really long. But how can I handle this. I dont have a single spark of hope thinking that i will ever find love. How can i believe i wont be alone forever.