Relapsed

So a day or so ago I blacked out, after a week of little to no sleep while working on a final project for a class I took this semester, and when I came too I found I had cum. Since then I have been horny. I'm used to being horny. I have reached the point where I can ignore it with no issue. But this time it was different. I had pornographic images runnning around in my head driving me crazy. These were of some porno that I have no knowledge of ever watching.

Then today came. I had a stressful time doing errands out of the house. That all culminated in me locking my keys in the car when I got home and thus locking myself out of the house. First thing I did after AAA came to rescue me was run inside and fap. Boy did the dopamine feel good. And boy do I feel disappointed and week right now.

That epiphany I had a few weeks ago still sticks with me. Up until today I have not had any urges to fap. In fact, I have found myself extremely calm in the urge department. I guess this just goes to show that I extreme stress is still a threat to my will power.

This round, I know I'll go the distance. Especially if I find a way to relax myself when I get stressed.

 

Generally, I play with and/or cuddle/pet my cats. Today I just reached the breaking point stress wise while I was standing outside my house, freezing, while waiting for AAA. Also, if my wife is home, I just hang out with her because she knows how to cheer me up.

I need to come up with a way to manage my stress while it's building so I don't break like today.