Relapsing again and again

seagulls6878

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It’s like I fap, have the O and feel super depressed . Then the next day I’m doing it again . Why is it like this for me ? I’m beginning to wonder if death is better . I was raised Roman Catholic but I’m not religious anymore . Would a loving god really send someone to hell for ending their life to escape pain ? Especially this pain . This mental pain is terrible .
 
It’s like I fap, have the O and feel super depressed . Then the next day I’m doing it again . Why is it like this for me ? I’m beginning to wonder if death is better . I was raised Roman Catholic but I’m not religious anymore . Would a loving god really send someone to hell for ending their life to escape pain ? Especially this pain . This mental pain is terrible .
I’m sorry you’re going through this suffering and pain. I suffer in much the same way and it is very difficult to endure.

God doesn’t send us to hell. We send ourselves by our own free will. Do you call out to God for help? If you refuse now you may refuse after death also, when your will is fixed. Those who don’t pay Him any attention in this life won’t in the next either and that’s really all hell is. Many of our problems in this life occur due to consequences of our own free will - those problems are the ones we are responsible for and have to answer for. Problems that occur due to the evil of others or even just naturally we are not as responsible for. But perhaps you could just ask for God to show you if he’s real. I’m not trying to push religion or faith on you, just making a gentle suggestion based on your question.
 
I’m sorry you’re going through this suffering and pain. I suffer in much the same way and it is very difficult to endure.

God doesn’t send us to hell. We send ourselves by our own free will. Do you call out to God for help? If you refuse now you may refuse after death also, when your will is fixed. Those who don’t pay Him any attention in this life won’t in the next either and that’s really all hell is. Many of our problems in this life occur due to consequences of our own free will - those problems are the ones we are responsible for and have to answer for. Problems that occur due to the evil of others or even just naturally we are not as responsible for. But perhaps you could just ask for God to show you if he’s real. I’m not trying to push religion or faith on you, just making a gentle suggestion based on your question.

With just a little bit of faith, things start turning and working in our favor, it's awesome
 
It’s like I fap, have the O and feel super depressed . Then the next day I’m doing it again . Why is it like this for me ? I’m beginning to wonder if death is better . I was raised Roman Catholic but I’m not religious anymore . Would a loving god really send someone to hell for ending their life to escape pain ? Especially this pain . This mental pain is terrible .
What if there is no such thing as “relapse?” What if that word is hiding the truth?
 
If you feel like everything is hopeless and that you have nothing to lose save your own life, and suspect there could be a God out there who has authority to judge your actions...

What I'm getting at is, I was in a terrible situation where I felt completely hopeless as I was trying to do nofap. I remember the exact day (cuz I journaled it). Seeing I had nothing left to lose, and felt no hope, I cried out to whatever good god might be out there, to please help me.
I started intently reading the Gospel of John secretly that night, and for the first time it became real and meaningful to me. I started going to church and participating in their church community as much as I could. And within a few months, I came to real faith in the religion I'd rejected in my early adulthood.

It also helped me make major strides in NoFap, reaching 98 days for the first time before relapsing and now after many subsequent failures I'm at over a year. When you've reached the end of yourself, there's no better time to call out to him for help.
 
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