Relativity of Time under urges and the time invest – maybe a motivation maybe not

After my recent relapse I needed to reflect on the time perception and I hitting at it with some numbers. While a week of no PMO feels like a year long battle right now the unrealistic hope is created that this must have already a huge impact. But on the other side are give or take in my case 11,000 hours (~20year ~0.5-2h a day and a little less) of P use … . If I would have trained to play a instrument this many hours I could be a pro… so I have to invest time real time to reprogram this. So 90day are about 800 hours awake that is 7% of the time to reprogram: sounds like fear deal I guess even 14 or 30% are reasonable. So one week is just 0.5% that can not make huge impact it just feels hard to do, thatch all and it makes sense that is not a big counterweight to the many hours of huges. And even if you could calculate this in many different way including urging and fantasying time etc… it still makes a point to me.