English is not my first language, hope it makes sense anyway So basically I am reading this book called No more Mr. nice guy by Robert Glover, and in this specific chapter he talks about how sexual shame and fear are some of the biggest reasons as to why nice guys rarely have satisfying sex lives. “All Nice Guys have shame and fear about being sexual and about being sexual beings”. So, to release this shame Glover suggests that you have to reveal all sexual aspects of yourself to the world. It’s also important to do this in a safe place, with encouraging and understanding people, which is why I came here. I do not want negativity in this thread. I will write here from time to time because it will be a long process most likely. Ways in which you have acted out sexually I, like many others on this site have been addicted to pornography. It started in a young age, I was totally hooked, it gave me satisfaction like nothing else. I think i somewhere knew that it was bad but since everyone started doing it I though it was ok. I think the shame increased massivle one time when I was caught in a young age. Since my mother’s reaction was anger, disappointment and shock, I felt like what I was doing was very wrong. This particular experience made me hide my addiction and sexual behavior from the world. I felt shame everytime someone talked about anything porn related. I’m not trying to say that porn is good, but the reaction I got from my mother made me believe that my sexual desires are bad. That also made me ashamed about sex in general. I have also got into erotic hypnosis, it’s like asmr but more sensual. This is another addiction of mine that I don’t think many others have. I became addicted because I needed a replacement for porn. And it worked well but it got me addicted to that instead. Sometimes I reallyyy want to do the second one but I have built up the discipline to stay away. I have been free from both for a total of 105 days. But I still don’t feel totally free, which is why I think it is important to release these emotions through words also. I think that does it today, I will continue tomorrow or some day else.