I've been a recovering porn/sex addict for a few years now, however only recently have I reached out to this forum. I have also just attended my second SAA meeting and I find myself struggling with some sticking points. I am an atheist and will never change my mind on that matter. Those who do have faith in a religion or a god are completely free and able to in my opinion, I am not someone who says you should or shouldn't have faith. I struggle because lots of recovery literature and readings mention a god and a higher power and when I read/hear those lines I actively tune out. I do not want to be preached to, and I also do not want to believe that the only way that I will get through this is if I simply "give myself to god". I'd like to know if there are similar people to me who also struggle with this; what have you done about it? And also those who will disagree with me; what do you say to people like me in recovery and how do they respond? In terms of SAA, I have enjoyed getting to know other peoples stories and collectively reducing the hold that this addiction has on all of us. It's for that reason I intend to stick at it for longer to see if things change.