Reoccurring Problems

It's been a long time since I posted here, but today I seem to have run into a problem. Basically, I had been doing hardmode for a long time, like 8 months, and then recently I started having nocturnal emissions. Once was fine, whatever, but the second time was a very awkward situation, although thankfully I'm the only person who knew about it. After that, I decided to try MO again to nothing but my imagination. Seemed like I felt fine after that, and I thought I was, but last weekend I made an extremely stupid mistake. I was googling Ted Cruz's tweets of a things, when suddenly I stumbled upon some articles that were talking about that time when he liked P on twitter and all of his followers saw it. And then I saw it, or at least a screen cap, and I've been feeling some incredibly strong urges since, and now my brain seems to have reverted back to that trans fetish I thought I left behind a while ago. It turns me on in a kind of way where I can tell it's from my addiction (I think other addicts or former addicts will get it), and I'm not super stoked. It's making me feel weird and slightly anxious, and this is not a good time in my life to not be feeling 100%, I have a ton of stuff going on right now. I get that this is just my addiction trying to crawl back into my life and I have no intentions of allowing it to do so. If anyone can relate to this or share any words of encouragement I would greatly appreciate it.