reposting my own thread It was in the wrong section. Depression.

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by youngandsuffering, Jul 23, 2020.

  1. youngandsuffering

    youngandsuffering Fapstronaut

    46
    26
    18
    About 5 months ago I accidentally came across some disturbing material online.

    Now I'm experiencing very low libido and depression. I haven't orgasmed in about 27 days. I start to watch P and M but my member feels almost nothing. I lose interest and just stop after maybe a couple minutes. This has happened about 3 times. Maybe I'm in the flatline.

    This would be a good thing if I wasn't feeling so depressed. I don't want to answer any messages I don't want to get up from my bed. I don't want to do anything basically. All I want to do is vaporize my weed but I limit myself. And even if I am high I still seem to have the depressed feeling in the back of my mind. I realize it will come back most likely.

    I've stopped most of my passions. I don't skate daily like I used to. I don't play video games like I used to. I don't watch anime or any movies or shows like I used to.

    I'm just very depressed. I don't even know why I'm posting here. I'll just have to deal with it I guess. Nothing helps. I feel hollow. Not even face timing with a beautiful girl helps. I had to get high before hand so I could do it, because if not I would have been real quiet and in a bad mood and it wouldn't have worked out. I can't really enjoy anything and it's so sad.
     
    NF SINCE BIRTH and RED. like this.
  2. RED.

    RED. Fapstronaut

    57
    5,957
    113
    I was like this .
    Started waking up 15 minutes earlier every week. now I wake up 90 minutes earlier than before.

    downloaded Smiling mind. meditated .

    Slowly started to stretch, jog ...now I workout one hour a day, with 30 minute cardio.

    This is where I am now.
    FAR FROM WHERE I WAS.

    TRY TO TAKE THE SMALLEST STEPS POSSIBLE. YOU WILL BE SURPRISED HOW YOU GOT THAT FAR.

    GET SOME AIR....

    RED?
     
  3. RED.

    RED. Fapstronaut

    57
    5,957
    113
    You should change your username.
     
  4. Peepaltree

    Peepaltree Fapstronaut

    Mindfulness meditation is a wonderful thing. I myself have experienced it. You will be surprised initially to know yourself that how much clutter is there in your mind which keeps popping without your control. This popping will go away with a few days into mindfulness. Be regular. Popping will go.. triggers won't disturb you. You will be in control. Flatline and other withdrawl symptoms will fade with time. Your depression will also be gone. Follow @RED? . He has replied very good.
     
  5. youngandsuffering

    youngandsuffering Fapstronaut

    46
    26
    18
    Today I woke up at 4:50 in the morning to help a friend fix an AC. I made some money and then I was done and he had to go to work.

    I used to meditate a lot. I tried to do it everyday, and I meditated on and off for like a year. It was nice, but I think my problems lie deeper. I workout about 3 days a week and I am kind of fit kind of not, but way better than before when I didn't workout.

    That's a good idea take small steps, but I've been on this self improvement nofap train for so long. I've done it all. Cold showers, mewing, nofap, meditation, working out, supplements, sunshine, microdosing. Pretty much everything and yet I always end up back to feeling bad. I think I've been led to believe all that is going to fill the void in me and it's not enough. Maybe I need to get closer to God.

    Doing all the self improvement stuff is great, but it's almost like I start feeling too good and after that it can only go down.

    It almost seems like I was born doomed to fail.

    Why do you say I should change my username? It describes me perfectly.

    I'm basically involuntarily on day 32 nofap. I wasn't even trying. I just have straight up depression now. I load up the site and try to do it to the thumbnails and I open many videos in other tabs and then I go to watch them and all interest fades away and I close it. This has been happening less and less because now I don't even want to open the site in the first place since I know what's gonna happen. I can get and keep an erection, but I don't feel that much feeling and something just makes me stop.
     
    NF SINCE BIRTH likes this.
  6. RED.

    RED. Fapstronaut

    57
    5,957
    113
    Suffering is your own creation .
    Instead of thinking how miserable you are, think how you can be less miserable.
    Don't make decisions. don't make plans.

    CHOOSE.

    just like this.
    when you're lying on the bed, and think about walking ,just go out and walk!
    It's that simple.
    The moment I stopped Writing down, and started instant planning, I became way more consistent.
    Just one ultimate reason to be positive is that being happy is not wrong!!
    hope it helps.
    RED?
     
  7. youngandsuffering

    youngandsuffering Fapstronaut

    46
    26
    18
    Everything you say makes sense, and re reading what I write I feel like it's kind of dumb, but it's how I feel. Thanks for helping.
     
    NF SINCE BIRTH likes this.
  8. Candun

    Candun Fapstronaut

    245
    317
    63
    Have you considered seeing a therapist? It could help tremendously.
     
    NF SINCE BIRTH likes this.
  9. youngandsuffering

    youngandsuffering Fapstronaut

    46
    26
    18
    I saw a counselor as a kid, but I never really opened up. It didn't help that much. Just scared me into trying to not be bad at school.
     
    NF SINCE BIRTH likes this.
  10. Candun

    Candun Fapstronaut

    245
    317
    63
    A professional therapist will do a much better job than a school counselor, don't let an isolated experience from the past dictate your decision now.
     
    NF SINCE BIRTH likes this.
  11. dylanwalsh

    dylanwalsh Fapstronaut

    23
    21
    3
    If you're depressed then it is a really good idea to see someone professionally. I mean it is the 21st century, there's no shame in it. Dealing with depression sucks, but sometimes you get comfortable in that depression and it is hard to get out of it. It's just easier to stay unhappy instead of doing anything about it.
    Sometimes you need to see a couple of therapists to get the right fit. Don't be afraid to switch to another therapist if things aren't working out. Most of professionals are very helpful and will probably refer you to someone else. There is a fit for you, just don't give up. I had to really search before I found the right fit. It is important to talk to someone, especially if you feel bad. I suffered from depression for years before I did something. Don't wait, it's pointless to wait. There are even therapist who specialize in porn addiction. They can really help explain to you what your going through. It helps.
     
  12. Ahmad_ismail_Abdullah

    Ahmad_ismail_Abdullah Fapstronaut

    11
    15
    3
    I think I can help you suffering stranger but I need a lot more information about your self , daily habits, gf, family, financial situation ,work and hobbies.
     
  13. youngandsuffering

    youngandsuffering Fapstronaut

    46
    26
    18
    ill message you
     
    NF SINCE BIRTH likes this.
  14. NF SINCE BIRTH

    NF SINCE BIRTH Fapstronaut

    1,347
    1,427
    143
    Depression is a beast. All the tips posted here give sense normally. If you have a mild or moderate depression then you can usually take control over the situation and help yourself out. If you are more deeply depressed however, then it is quite possible that you cant make it out on your own.

    It is no shame in asking for help. I dont know if you are deeply depressed. The requirements for that is that you are thinking about ending it pretty much. Moderate depression is also quite heavy and is probably reason enough to seek out a therapist.

    If you are just mildly depressed then you can get quite far by just "pulling yourself together". Sounds a bit aggressive. In the end it is all about you doing the hard work but if you are stuck in a rut then you will need cognitive therapy and learn some tools to better cope with your depression.
     
    youngandsuffering likes this.

Share This Page