Hi folks. For those who are unacquainted, I am on a journey of removing masturbation as a mechanism of coping with loneliness and self-pity. I wish to document an experience I witnessed today. Let's begin. Prior to writing, I was in the process of preparing for bed. While brushing my teeth, I had a fleeting thought pass through my mind expressed as the temptation to masturbate. I feel good about today's events, and I find when I carry this mindset I am willing to entertain the thought of rewarding myself with a pleasurable activity. Also, I think the memory of seeing an attractive female today is putting the desire to masturbate on my mind. When I masturbate, I will derive excitement from the fantasies that fill my mind. In order to keep myself accountable to my journey I realized and accepted that the process of masturbating to a fantasy may feel good during the moment, but it will leave me hollow once I finish. Suffice to say, I decided to resist this temptation and share this experience with you. Thank you for reading.