I'm 26 years old and trying to rid myself of 2 bad habits that have been ruling my life for more than half a decade: weed and porn. I'm currently on day 21 of quitting weed, and after finally being through the nasty withdrawal I experienced, I figured I was ready to finally go through with quitting porn. I've been smoking weed almost daily since a bad break up I experienced soon after I turned 20 and it has taken me several attempts to finally go through with it. At first it gave me wings, until it became a crutch, and it has taken quite a bit of research, self-discovery, willpower and mindfulness to quit it. That being said, quitting weed is one thing, but feels like quitting porn will be a challenge on a whole new level since I've been hardwiring my brain to it for more than twice as long. I've been masturbating since I'm 11 years old, and watching/seeking porn regularly since about the same age. Until my early 20s, I didn't really have much a problem with it, since it helped me with my anxiety, stress and depression, whether it be because of school, sports, relationships, work (heck life in general). Furthermore, at the time I didn't know any better about the hole I was digging myself in. But now, I can finally see how deep of a hole I've dug; it just feels like I'm a slave to my urges, mainly my sexual ones. After a couple of years that have been hard on my physical, mental and spiritual health, with bouts of suicidal thoughts, I noticed that I was using weed and sex (mostly porn) to make myself feel better. This had a really deep impact on my self-esteem, self-respect and self-love that further exacerbated my anxiety and depression. It also affected how I approached relationships, but that's the subject of another thread in itself. Now, I know that as a freshly independent young adult, life will not get much easier moving forward, I will just need to get more resilient to tackle the hurdles that will get in my way. So in light of that, I do not want to rely on weed and sex when things will get rough in the future. I want to be in control and regain my self-respect/esteem/love so I can finally thrive in my life. I know that going about this alone is extremely hard, if not impossible. So I joined this community in the hopes that it would help me on my journey to recovery, but also so I can eventually help other people in theirs too.