right after jacking off feeling relapse

Please listen first thing is

Fuck addiction, to anything I have learned that I tend to go to alcohol when abstaining from porn and whe I go out to like a bar, I will snort some yayo, in a compulsive way , its not sexual disfunction its fucking brain addiction , If I could load my shit and go fuck up evil if thats what made me this way I would but I know this is internal and dealing with this new weapons(inside) its hard. I seriously feel that If I make it guys I will fuken spend the rest of my life tryng to help people overcome this just from fuken gratefullness. Its crazy I want a reboot like now, fuck well day 1 1st hour of the day