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Road to freedom update !

For Fapstronauts who are disciples of Christ

  1. day 1:

    Hey! So this morning will be day 1 after fapping yesterday morning. I had a much better night and overnight. I also had a much better morning so far. I had a dream last night, but I don’t think it was sexual, (wet). This morning, I thought I started to edge, I don’t think I did. Definitely have not PMO. Maybe i O’d a little bit, but I don’t think that counts as a relapse. Oing is easy for me for some reason. I will continue to update you guys on everything.
     
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  2. Day 1 complete: no urges to PMO. Aroused at times by random things, but never acted on them. And if any thoughts, I shot them down. I Watched mostly NHL hockey, One NBA basketball game and one MLB baseball game. I also played with my 1 1/2 year old nephew. I also worked out, (did bench press today). I witch between bench press and free weight curls. One each day, one or the other. Tonight is going good. There were times I saw something sexy, in my opinion on the tv. But I’m not going to act from seeing that. Other than that, it’s been good.

    thats what happened today.
     
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  3. Day 2 complete: (up to 2 days, 12 hours and counting). An immediate change I noticed is that I’m so happy and have joy, I could definitely tell today. Literally after only 2 days, I seem like I conquered the world. Anyway, no urges to PMO this morning or today. Nothing tonight either. Again at times, I saw things and had thoughts at times that could have triggered me or caused me to lust, but I ignored them and shut them down. Again at times, I’d orgasm for some reason. But I’m not putting setbacks because I didn’t P & M. O only, plus I don’t think I need to if I’m just Oing without Ping and Ming. I Played with my nephew most of the day. Then I went out with my mom today. I Just finished my workout, (I did curls tonight). I watched Christian kids movies today. Watched hockey today and now Watching more hockey before bed. Also watched some of 2 baseball games.

    Question: is there a way to stop the orgasms ? I want to save the orgasms for my future wife.

    That’s what happened today.
     
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  4. You are doing well to shut down the unhelpful thoughts immediately. That is how we stay free!

    I have never heard of an O without some sort of stimulation. They don't just happen spontaneously out of nowhere. And you make it sound like this is happening more than once in a day. This is most unusual. If you are indeed experiencing O multiple times per day with no stimulation of any kind, you may need to consult with a doctor.
     
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  5. Thank you and yes I am. Yes, that’s for sure.

    wow, that’s surprising. Maybe my body knows I’m not going to P and M over something, so it just Os. Well, yeah it does happen at times. Wow. Okay and okay, I can.
     
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  6. Day 3 complete: no urges to PMO. I did have a sexual dream last night.
    I woke up and thought that I was gonna M, but I was able to resist. Maybe touched myself maybe 1 or 2 times, but I never actually and fully M’d. There were times throughout the day I saw things that could have tempted me, but i ignored and got rid of any temptations that tried to come my way. I read my physical Bible and prayed, (actually talked to God like I talk to a friend), this morning as in always do in the mornings. Then I danced the remainder of the morning, (as I always also do in the mornings). Then I watched some Christian videos, then I showered. Played with my nephew for a little bit. Then I went to workout while I watched more hockey and also more Christian movies. Then I came up and watched some Bible man movies while I played with my nephew again. I’m watching more Bible man movies before bed.

    thats what happened today.
     
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  7. Day 4 complete: no urges to PMO. I did not have any sexual dreams last night. Didn’t even touch myself this morning. Again. There were times throughout the day I saw things that could have tempted me, but i ignored and got rid of any temptations that tried to come my way. Again, I read my physical Bible and prayed, (actually talked to God like I talk to a friend), this morning as I always do in the mornings. I tried to dance for the remainder of the morning, (as I always also do in the mornings), but I couldn’t focus, so I went and read more of my bible and prayed some more. Again I watched some Christian videos. I think I may have lusted after a woman in a few of the videos. I tried not to, but it is hard. Wonder if this requires a reset, relapse, setback ECT. Then I showered. I didn’t Play with my nephew that much this afternoon. Then I went to workout while I read my Bible and also more Christian movies. Again, had a hard time not lusting after woman in the videos. Wonder if this also requires a setback, relapse, reset, ECT. Are these and the sexual dream from last night the early signs and stages of the PMO withdrawal system ? I was working out but I had to leave, so I left and came back and finished my workout. Had a phone call with a friend while I worked out. Then I came up and watched some Bible man movies again while I played with my nephew again. I’m playing a little bit of LEGO video games before bed.

    thats what happened today.
     
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  8. If even Christian videos cause you to stumble, then eliminate them. Stand firm and do not go back!
     
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  9. Okay. Okay, I will. Okay and okay. Would that require a relapse, reset, setback, ECT ?
     
  10. Only you and the Spirit can answer that question.
     
  11. Day 5 complete, Aug 21: no urges to PMO. Each day has been a little bit of a struggle not to lust, but I was able to get through it. I had a dream about purple background and a Cross that was white as snow, that was really awesome and amazing. I also had a sexual dream on that night before day 5. Didn’t P. But may have M overnight because I had an O. I did the one song for the morning, (the one I usually do in the morning). I read my Bible and prayed. I didn’t do the other songs that day. I went downstairs and played video games for a while. Then I was gonna go shower, but my nephew wanted to play with me and plus my sister had to go somewhere and me and my mom were watching him. So I stayed down there and played with him. After a while, my nephew fell asleep. So I was able to go and shower. I don’t think I worked out on that day. I hungout with my friend that night. I was gonna workout, but it was too late, so I went to bed. Also any and every thought or temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of it. Sorry, I’m trying to figure what happened. Been a little while since I last posted.

    That’s what happened on that day.
     
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  12. Day 6 complete, Aug 22: no urges to PMO. Each day has been a little bit of a struggle not to lust, but I was able to get through it. I couldn’t do anything that morning because I had to be with my sister while my mom went somewhere. I did workout twice, (did the workout from the previous day because I didn’t workout the previous day. Also did the workout for that day as well). After my first workout, I went upstairs and played video games for a while. Afterwards, my mom came back and I went back down to do my second workout and watched more hockey. After I was done, I came up and played video games for a while while I played with my nephew. I did do my Bible reading, need to get back to praying again. If I can remember, I played more video games. But after everything, I went to bed that night. Also every and any thoughts and temptations that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. Sorry, I’m trying to figure what happened. Been a little while since I last posted.

    that’s what happened that day.
     
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  13. Day 7, Aug 23 complete: no urges to PMO. Each day has been a little bit of a struggle not to lust, but I was able to get through it. Again, any thoughts and temptations that came my way, I got rid of them. This morning, I did the one song that I usually do in the morning. Then I watched church and also did more Bible reading. Hung out in my room for a little bit. Then I showered. Then I played with my nephew and did other things before going to workout. I did half my workout because I had to go somewhere. I finished my workout and probably gonna do something fun before bed. Didn’t really do much at all today.

    thats what happened today.
     
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  14. Day 8 complete: no urges to PMO. Again, every thought and temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. Also, I think Oing is becoming less and less. But still will O at times. Lust is sometimes an issue, but I think I’m getting better at not lusting. Today, I decided to commit to and accept the trinity. I also decided to accept the love that comes from the trinity. I repented of my sin to the trinity and rededicated my life to them and the Holy Spirit. This morning, I checked on nofap and did other things on my phone before getting up. Then I did the song that I usually do in the morning. Then I read my Bible and prayed. Then I played video games and also played with my nephew. Then I had a personal conversation with my mom about family things. I was on my phone at one point and spotted a YouTube video of workout girls in bikinis, but to my surprise and by a Miracle, I was not aroused at all. After that I said, "I am not gonna let any girls in bikinis trigger me”. Anyway. After that, I went to shower
    And then I came down and played with my nephew some more before going to workout. As I worked out, I watched the Republican National Convention. Usually I don’t watch politics at all. I also watched a little bit of hockey. After my workout, I came up and I was gonna figure out the collage class to take and check in, but it got late. But now I’m checking nofap again and I replied to someone before going to bed.

    thats what happened today.
     
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  15. Day 9 complete: no urges to PMO. Again, every thought and temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. I had a sexualized dream last night, but I didn’t PMO at all. I saw something sexy today on my phone, but I did not allow it to trigger me, I wasn’t even aroused by it at all. Lust is sometimes an issue, but I think I’m getting better at not lusting. But many times it’s hard to control, like it was today. At times I would lust and times I wouldn’t. I tried not to. Also, I think Oing is becoming less and less. But still will O at times. This morning, I checked nofap before getting up. Then I got up and did the song that I usually do in the morning. Then I listened to one worship song. Then I read my Bible and prayed. Then I went down and played video games for a little bit, then I played with my nephew for a while. I also vacuumed for my mom and did the dishes. Anyway, my sister had to go somewhere. So my nephew went with her. So I was able to go shower and I did. Then I was gonna go workout but my nephew wanted to play more, so I did. I was gonna workout after that, but I had to pick up my other sister so I waited. After getting her we dropped her off somewhere and went home. Then I played with my nephew some more. Then I Went to workout and as I did, I talked to the trinity for a while and about many topics and also to myself. I also watched Christian videos and read more of my Bible. I did not watch tv while doing any of that. Talked to my mom when she came down there. Then I came up and got read for bed. I was gonna try to get the collage class going, but it got late again. Now I’m finishing this update before bed.

    thats what happened today, Aug 25th.
     
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  16. Day 10, Aug 26th complete: no urges to PMO. No sexualized dream last night. Again, every thought and temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. I saw some more sexy things today on my phone, but I did not allow them to trigger me, I wasn’t even aroused by it at all or barely aroused. Still lust is sometimes an issue, but I think I’m getting better at not lusting. But many times it’s hard to control, like it was again today. Again at times I would lust and times I wouldn’t. I tried not to. Also, I think Oing is becoming less and less. But still will O at times. Actually if I can remember, I barely O’d today. Not sure though. This morning, I checked nofap before getting up. Then I watched a kid’s movie for a little bit. Then I got up and did the song that I usually do in the morning. Then I read my Bible and prayed. Then I listened to some worship songs. I also started my collage class finally. listened to worship songs while I did collage. Then I was gonna shower. But my sister had to leave and my nephew wanted me to come see and play with him, so I did. We also watched tv while we played. Then I was gonna go shower and go workout after my sister got home, but we had to leave before 6:00PM, so I waited. After we came home, I was gonna shower. But I decided to go workout, so I did. I watched the weather channel, hockey and talked about the trinity and watched more Christian videos. After I finished all that, I went to shower and got ready for bed. Now I’m finishing this message before going to bed.


    That’s what happened on that day.
     
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  17. Day 11, Aug 27th complete: no urges to PMO. Although, I had a sexualized dream last night. I thought I was temped to M, i started but i actually needed to use the restroom. So nothing happened after that. Again, every thought and temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. This time, I think I barely saw any sexy things today on my phone. but if I did, I did not allow them to trigger me, I wasn’t even aroused by it at all or barely aroused. Still lust is sometimes an issue, but I’m not sure if I’m getting better at not lusting or not. But many times it’s hard to control, like it was again today. Again at times I would lust and times I wouldn’t. I tried not to. Also, I think Oing is becoming less and less. But still will O at times. Actually if I can remember, I barely O’d today. The only time I O’d was this morning, that’s really it. This morning, I checked nofap. Then I went to shower early because my mom had to go somewhere. I didn’t do the song I usually do in the morning. So after my shower, I was gonna go downstairs where my sister was, but she was coming up so I just stayed in the living most of the day. I played with my nephew for a little bit while we watched tv. Then my sister went outside to do things and took my nephew with him. When they were gone, I did school. Eventually when my mom got home, later I couldn’t take it anymore so I went to workout. While I worked out, I read my Bible and listened to praise and worship songs. I Did watched some tv down there as well. Then during my workout I came upstairs a few times for different reasons. When I finished my workout, I came upstairs and talked with my family for a little while. Then I cams upstairs to my room and got ready for bed. Then I prayed because I didn’t pray today. Then I got in bed and now I’m finishing this message before going to bed.


    That’s what happened on that day.
     
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  18. Day 12, Aug 28th complete: no urges to PMO. I did not have a sexualized dream last night. Again, every thought and temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. I saw some sexy things today on my phone today. but I did not allow them to trigger me, I wasn’t even aroused by most things today. The truth is that I’ve girls in bikinis multiple times, but I would never let any of those pictures trigger me. Lust is sometimes an issue, but I’m not sure if I’m getting better at not lusting or not. But many times it’s hard to control, like it was again today. Again at times I would lust and times I tried not to. But I think I did when I saw an animated braless woman cover over breasts with her hands, but she had underwear on. I also saw an animated naked man covering his private. I also saw a half done wedding dress and some animated lesbian story ads. I saw all of those in a game ad. Also, I think Oing is becoming less and less. But still will O at times. I was turned a bit and I had a big O. I was also turned on multiple times and had big Os after seeing that game ad. By the trinity’s Grace, Love, Mercy & Power, I did not P & M. I didn’t watch full blown P at all. I didn’t M at all either. I was playing a game that's not sexual. Not sure if all this is considered porn/sexual or not and if it requires a setback, relapse, reset, ECT. Again, I did not P & M. But I had big Os at that moment and multiple times after and was turned on a bit at that moment and multiple times after that. This morning, I checked nofap. Then I listened to a worship song or some. Then I did the song I usually do in the morning. Then I read my Bible and prayed. Then I hung out in my room a bit. Then I went to shower. After my shower, I was gonna go workout, but my sister left before I was done with my shower. So I just stayed in the living room and played with my nephew basically all day. I did not get to get work done on my collage class. It wasn’t until around 9:00PM or so when I went to workout. I didn’t watch tv as I worked out. Instead I talked and prayed to the trinity about things. I also called my best friend as I worked out. After the call, I finished my workout and checked nofap again. Then I came upstairs and got ready for bed. When I got in bed, I started working on this message. I finished this message the next morning.


    That’s what happened on that day.
     
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  19. Day 13, Aug 29th complete: no urges to PMO. I did not have a sexualized dream last night and nothing last night and nothing this morning. I had nothing, no temptations, no urges to PMO. Absolutely nothing. The reason is because I prayed and asked the trinity to help me and guard me from the sexual dreams and everything in between. I went to bed with nothing and woke up with nothing, praise Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit. Thank and praise, Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit, (the trinity). Again, every thought and temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. I did not see anything sexual on my phone at all today. but if I did, I did not allow them to trigger me. I wasn’t even aroused by most things today. Lust is sometimes an issue, but I’m not sure if I’m getting better at not lusting or not. But many times it’s hard to control, but I don’t think it was that hard today. But again at times I would lust and times I tried not to. But, it was better at times today. Also, I think Oing is becoming less and less. But still will O at times. I was barely turned on at all today. Only very little and weak turn ons. No serous Os. Only some Os. Very spread apart was sometimes rare. This morning, I checked nofap and played games on my phone. After that, I listened to a worship song or some. Then I did the song I usually in the morning. Then I read my Bible and prayed. Then I went to the living room and played with my nephew and brother in law. I also went in the kitchen and talked with my family. I did all that for a while. Then I went to take a shower. Then I went to workout. I watched kids movies and also khan academy as I worked out. After my workout I went upstairs and talked with my mom for a little while. Then I came upstairs and got ready for bed. When I got in bed, I started writing this message. Now I finished the message the next morning.


    That’s what happened on that day.
     
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  20. Day 14, Aug 30th complete: no urges to PMO. Again, I did not have a sexualized dream last night. Again, I prayed and asked the trinity to help me and guard me from the sexual dreams and everything in between. I went to bed with nothing and woke up with nothing, praise Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit. Thank and praise, Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit, (the trinity). Again, every thought and temptation that tried to come my way, I got rid of them. I did not see anything sexual on my phone at all again today. but if I did, I did not allow them to trigger me. I wasn’t even aroused by most things today. Lust is sometimes an issue, but I’m not sure if I’m getting better at not lusting or not. But many times it’s hard to control, but I don’t think it was that hard today. But again at times I would lust and times I tried not to. But, it was better at times today. Also, I think Oing is becoming less and less. But still will O at times. I was barely turned on today at all. This morning, I checked nofap and played games on my phone. Then I did the song that I usually do in the morning. Then I prayed and read my Bible. Then I watched the church service online. Then I watched videos on YouTube. None sexual. Then I went to shower. Then I came down and played with my nephew for a while. Then I went to workout. I watched some tv, but I mostly watched YouTube videos. After my workout, I came up and talked to my mom a while. Then, I came upstairs and got ready for bed. When I got in bed, I started writing this message. I finished this message the next morning.


    That’s what happened on that day.
     
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