We’ve just come back from a mini break to my SO family town with the kiddos. He brought a road bike...after I suggested it would be a good distraction for him on days when he is off shift and home alone. So he’s happy today with his purchase. Weekend was non-eventful. The kids were ok but at times stressing me out as they do. He is the calm one with them and has more patience than I do these days so that was very helpful. Plenty of intimate fun times, although I did get a few triggers of past pain ...one of remembering a time we visited and he kinda had to really concentrate to finish ...I joke and call it the ‘dont Move and I’m in a headlock position!!’ Lol but mostly I guess it was the produce of porn misuse and desensitisation. Anyway none of that this time. I still feel like at the moment our libidos are mis matched and the majority of the time he is trying to full fill my wants. I’m sure he would go much longer in between. I do miss so much the feeling of them desiring you and them instigating it. All ok all a great weekend. He’s 69 days P&M free apparently. So doing well. We don’t talk about it much these days so hoping he is still staying vigilant. His CE app did glitch on his phone and I helped put it right. Another trigger was him pointing out a picture of me with wavy hair and how he likes it..... not sure if it’s trigger or just insecurity as immediately I’m thinking of him looking at my friends pictures on FB who has wavy hair...,,I feel like such a loon. I was looking up a picture on my late husband’s FB to show him his road bike and came across an old profile picture that was cheerleaders...I said god that didn’t even register with me as an issue but if he did that now being a PA I would rip him a new a hole! Lol . Just goes to show how secure I was with my Late husband as he didn’t appear to sexualise anything and now I am a mental case. Fingers crossed we make it To 90 days not that I expect some revelation to occur. But still progress is progress.