Hello, im reaching out to you guys in a place of hopelessness. Please excuse my poor English, im European. Porn has been a daily rutine for me since i was young, ive been watching for about 10 years and i had over 3000 viewed videos solely on pornhub. I recently learned how severly this has been affecting my brain and i decided to make a change. I deleted my PH account and started the 90 day challenge. After relapsing on day 14 something sparked inside me. I CAN DO THIS, IF I CANT DO THIS, THEN WHAT CAN I REALLY DO? Ive been using savage self talk every single day since then and ive managed to stay away from porn and touching myself for the whole stretch. I want the reebot SO bad. Yesterday was day 89. 89!!!!!!!!! I was browsing a discussion forum and accedently clicked a bad link, it lead to an animal porn video of a pig and a woman. This is a fetish that ive buried a long time ago since i find it dispicable, and not even in my pmo days would i watch this kind of thing. The video autoplayed and i froze, watching it for about 5 seconds before closing it down in panic but it was too late. I instantly felt an extreme dopamine rush and i was literally shaking for about 10 minutes after that, feeling the same type of anxiety id have after a binge. I also got precum. Today (supposedly day 90) ive been feeling extremly down and my brain has been flooded with fantasy flashes, resulting in precum atleast 2 times. I think its fair to say my reboot is ruined and reset. I literally feel hopeless. Im hoping for any advise you people can give me. What do i do from here? Will i ever be able to recover if im this sensitive to this addiction?