Ruining My Life

Thanks for reaching out. (wrong part of the forum though)
You have started well done.
Start by reading about the addiction and watching Youtube movies about what it does to your brain.
Keep a blog in the blog section and post every day
Take baby steps, letting go of this is hard.
My record is 94 days, I'm going fro 500+, forever. But forever is just an endless stream of moments, of now.
So again well done now you have stopped.

Participating in challenges helps a lot of people, 1 day, 3 days etc etc.
Find new habits, healthier ones, start talking to people, anyone on the street, just comment about the weather. Say something nice to a random person, nice sweater?
People like to talk (mostly about themselves

it will take effort, there will be anguish and pain but that is just you getting better.
Good luck!

 

well done first step. you asked for help and let's fight this together.
from reading your post you seem a very smart guy and highly need to get ride of PMO ASAP. yes, your self-loathing and bad grades are absolutely from PMO-ing. you're still young and it's worth for your lifetime to take one year gap to reconcile with yourself and completely heal from this addiction. understand, this is a battle you're in it and we're here to support. if you have a family member or a friend "male" to help you in the process will be an advantage. if you're enroll in college and feel can't control do it, because college life can get stressful and the stressors can lead you to relapse. even if stressors and frustration are part of our life. but you're in a different stage because you're sensitive that's a result of addiction to PMO.

i was in college and i took a gap year to free from PMO. i succeed partly however, i fucked up myself with high skills job because so much stress to it. then i resume my studies, junior and senior year. it was so much insane. i just lived each day as it is to get to finishing the degree. I am 26. listen Man, i'd love you to be 26 and completely a new man. it will require so much work the addiction is like atomic bomb. it's devastation of brain. the brain is the controller over anything of human being in earth. well his hear count too.

 

I had stumbled upon a nude magazine when i was 12 and it got me until now . I know its really hard because there is so much porn out there but we re all here because its messing with our lives . keep posting so we can help each other and figure this out .