Same rationalization keeping me from success

I keep having these rationalizations of watching porn and masturbating for such a long time now, it's still impeding my ability to make substantial change. The biggest one for me is:

"Oh, you're not really interested in the actual sex that's in porn, you only look at the solo nude models and maybe some lesbian stuff... don't worry, what you see isn't affecting you in a bad way, go to town! It's not porn, just modeling pics/the girl is by herself/etc."

This goes back to when I first started watching porn. It started with pics of nude models. I wasn't the person to watch the heterosexual porn, the porn that everyone mostly talks about. As a result, I've been lying to myself that I was ok to enjoy it. I admit that I am still struggling with this idea. Yes, my porn taste have morphed into some weird fetishes, but the penetration/moneyshot/hardcore porn genres don't appeal to me. As a result, I feel like I can still watch porn because I'm not being affected by the harmful effects that "real" porn gives.

Has anyone else felt this way? Any way out of it? I honestly cannot think of another way to get out of my consent relapse/binge cycle without coming to terms with it in some way.

 

I am similar. I was more interested in seeing images of hot women, than watching the sex act. Even if you are just jerking off to pictures of women in bikinis, the problem is the same. You are training yourself to respond to images rather than actual human interaction.

 

You're right. The man reason why I got into porn was because I wanted a girlfriend - to have an intimate, loving, relationship with a girl. So I would stick to that kind of material and pretty much worshipped the way they looked. Maybe what I need to do is actually get off my butt and seek a real girl for marriage (I come from a religion/culture where sex before marriage is a no-no, so the only way that I can have real intimacy is if I marry). But I'm scared that I won't be good enough for that someone because I'm addicted to porn. It's like a catch-22...