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I've done this in the past as well. I never saw it as a Freudian slip. Or even questioned why I said what I said to myself in those times. But I imagine that self-talk and fantasy are closely related. In the past, I never worried about what I said to myself while watching porn even if it was weird. The weirder the better actually. Anything to get a bigger rush. I'd like to say don't worry and that actions speak louder than words. But still, I get where you're going. It's worrisome to think about your thoughts as evidence of some true nature.

If you're still active, I'd like to know how you've been dealing. Or what your feeling on HOCD is now. I've been struggling since the beginning of 2020.

 

Oh and furthermore @BillyBobBoBoBo throughout the course of the day, I may say a hundred things to myself. I can't really keep my brain quiet. And not sexual things. Sometimes violent, sometimes funny, many stupid, and almost all of the sentences I form in my head are not things I would do in real life.