Second Hard-Mode Reboot

Hi, everyone! It's not my first time here, but it's good to be back. The first time I stopped by was when I began my first hard-mode reboot, which lasted four months. I fell back down the rabbit hole afterward- not daily, but PMO became a bad weekly or bi-weekly habit. The same problems persist- no relationships, no drive or ambition after the first few days post-PMO, and of course guilt & shame. The one bit of good news is that I've managed to maintain my sobriety from drugs (4 years), alcohol (3 years), and cigarettes (4 years).

Why am I back? Honestly, I have no reason to be messing around with PMO (none of us do, amirite?). I'm 28 years old, have a decent career, and have most of my life figured out. I'm at the point where I'd like to start dating and hopefully find a lasting relationship. Working from home has made it especially easy to engage in PMO when I encounter the slightest excuse (long day, emotional upset, the fallacy of convincing myself that I "deserve" to reward my hard work with "enjoyment"). I realize that I can't do this alone; I need others' support and have to be very intentional about my goals.

So, here I am, taking the first (or second) step. It won't be easy, it won't be simple, it won't be something I can accomplish overnight, but it's something I can start now. Wish me luck, and thanks for having me back!