Self hatred for being lonely

Ok sooo first off, watching anime does not make you gross or a loser, anime is a big part of my life and i have gotten laid several times so not sure what anime has to do with anything. Do you really want to blow 30 more years down the drain being a loser?, what are you doing to improve your life?, are you exercising, weight lifting, meditating, taking cold showers, changing takes effort, it means finding a new way of living and fleeing from old bad things.

 

Anything becomes disgusting if you make it into an obsession. I like watching anime from time to time as it's pretty fun to watch, sometimes I waste to much time on it. Same can go for videogames and other entertainment. They all give pleasure without much effort, just like how masturbating does. The thing with masturbating is that it gives waay more dopamine I feel, so getting rid that is pretty important. Food gives a lot as well, so sometimes fast.

We have lost a lot from PMO; try and get some of what you lost back man. It's not over for you, you can do so much in a year or 2. Just stay focused! I always used to think about what I could have become if I didn't jerk off and was more productive as a young lad. Those times are over, I gotta try to become the best I can now. Think positive fam.

 

I sometimes see a Guy at my work who is incredibly negative, nobody likes him and talk About him behind his back. He created this himself. Whenever i looked at him I thought this is me in 20 years. This image grossed me out and i started to change things slow. U need to realise l it in order to begin with it is my opinion. So know u that u see it you know u can start the progress. Good luck bro

 

Maybe you need to start reading some self helping books? How to win friends and influence people for example. Then try to find some events nearby where you can go to apply the knowledge?

It’s hard as hell, and 95% of all people willl rather whine then doing it, but it’s worth a try.

 

I played games ALOT. Watched tv shows and movies. Looked for new games every time just to make up for the moments I had nothing to do.

Until 6 weeks ago, i was sick of being who I am. My life was going nowhere. I started watching youtube videos of TEDx talk.
They help alot. Just watch for the things that u think can use improvement. U can find alot.

Look for people who know what they are talking about. Download the Headspace app and start meditating (it gives me more concentration)
I was on 7 days when I gave in to PMO and still regret it. I feel so much better lately.
Im now watching movies from RSDTyler. He is a pickup artist but he also gives really good life lessons.
Invest time in people, try to learn a new thing every day. And if you do get back to gaming, listen to a video or podcast on the side. So you always get usefull and helpfull information on the side.

Is this what u are looking for ?

 

This is utter nonsense. & watch your usage of the term retard, little buddy.

 

Take baby steps to improve your life. First two things, get a decent hair cut and then get out of the house and do stuff.

 

Hey man, you can do this.
I was in a very dark place too...I can relate....

Please, please, please lookup on Youtube self-affirmations for self-love and self-acceptance.
Please, please, please read daily positive affirmations and watch self-love videos! Watch hypnosis! I mean it!
It fucking works dude!

 

I will do that today definitely. I was actually planning a haircut to start this life off right. So thank you for that.