I've stumbled on this forum recently and I desperately want to feel like a normal human again but it's hard to see the point. I've heard Nofap can take up to 2 years and I don't have that time to waste. I'm a massive loser at this point in my life, I'm almost 20 and haven't had sex, am not currently in college and still live with parents. Even if I change all this, the minute anyone were to find out I lost my virginity in my 20s, or even that I'm doing Nofap, my life is RUINED. They will always see me as a subhuman incel and nothing in my life will change anyway. It truly seems like in my position, suicide is the only option. To top it all off, I want to try new things, but at my age it's impossible to learn new things, or at least become any good at them. So again, all this struggle will lead to nothing. I won't keep living a life like this, either I make something of myself magically and don't get laughed off the face of the earth for being a failure, or I kill myself. Is suicide the right thing to do in my case?