Self-Introduction

Hi everyone! I wish to remain anonymous but at the same time, I've got to share my story with you guys out there.
I started masturbating when I was hardly 7 yrs old! I remember, I never masturbated with my hands until I turned 13 rather I used to press my privates against a bed or a wall! I had no access to PORN up until 11 till then I used to masturbate watching erotic songs on tv. Gradually I developed an addiction towards PMO. I never realized that it could effect my health because I was told the biggest lie of my life that masturbation was "normal". Now I have turned 19 and believe me, I feel like committing suicide! My heart has become numb; I feel pain in my left abdomen; I face severe psychological problems due to chemical imbalances; my face is turning dark with acne not letting me live peacefully; my bones have become nothing but soft wood; I am the thinnest guy on the earth with just 40 kgs of weight! ; I have a low self esteem and low self confidence; I have memory problems; and many more!!
I tried everything to stop this disastrous habit but to no avail. Every time I try, I end up masturbating again. The maximum number of days I could withhold this is 33 days. Nevertheless I have started this habit again and I feel nothing is gonna help me. I just dont know what is gonna help me.
Today I accidentally typed NoFap on Google and I landed on this website. I've created my account and my streak has begun today at 9 am. I am ready to take up the 90-day challenge. I need your support brothers and sisters. I just want to get my life back!! I want to live a life of a successful person!! I just want to escape this curse!!

 

Hi buddy! I am very glad that u took a step towards helping me. That's worth appreciating brother. By the way, I have been reading some stories and scientific articles on this website and found all of them very helpful! Now I feel positive and I am not gonna consider those ill thoughts of committing suicide once again! I always used to think that I was alone who's facing these issues but today I found out that there are actually thousands of people like me and the most interesting part is that they are succeeding in their goals! I always used to think this is IMPOSSIBLE but this community made me feel it actually is very much POSSIBLE. I thank all of you!!