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Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Alexander, Apr 30, 2017.
That's definately going in my skill inventory
Yesterday had some cravings while in restroom, almost give in, it is weird how much power this addiction has over our brains, but I have made a commitment, I can not live with this addiction anymore , it is sucking life out of me. I know I have been in recovery for 3 years now and I have relapsed countless number of times, but that won't change anything in my commitment. I will go above and beyond and do whatever it takes me to do be it coaching/therapy sessions, sobriety calls, self care , journaling, self acceptance, meditation, whatever it takes me to get out of it I will do it. Even if I relapse along the way I will not give up. I can not live the rest of my life like this, I have many aspirations, I want to leave a legacy behind myself when I am not in this world anymore, I want to give back, I want to have my own family but addiction is fighting to devour all these aspirations from me and I will not let this happen. I know my body and brain is craving to get its fix and I know I am very vulnerable and weak,but I will keep seeking help from God because I can not resist against the claws of inner addict who has gotten hold of my brain.
In Hagakure there is a part which says:
Things of great importance should be addressed with ease. Things of little importance are addressed with seriousness.
So i think, we all should be as light as possible and try to handle it with humor because it is so important to us.
Back again guys. Had a nice 90+ days streak on No-PM Mode and after that I was sharing my time with a beautiful girl. Sadly, and unconveniently, she had to leave the country for work.
Now we're in this long distance relationship but it has been around 2 months that we've been apart. In this time this PM problem has been crawling slowly into my life back again... I say no. I'm cutting this deadweight for good.
My girls is coming back at around august so I'm taking 90 days of No-PMO to make a hard reboot in myself. After she's back I'm commited to continue on NO-PM as neccesary.
See you in the forums,
Day two completed. No urges a couple thoughts.
Today i had some strong urges and I'm about to relapse but i could resist myself by thinking how hard our brothers are fighting against this monster ,I prayed god to help me in this situation.
I'm happy overcoming it.peace☮️
I really love it how some people are poetic about this behaviour. Its like we are fighting this Lavithean or the Kraken or Hydra loolz. Its nice sometimes to have a bit of humour.
But ye, i'm using a count down timer of 14 days. I think my headaches and pains are going to strike tomorrow for the next 3 days then it will be urge surfing again. I hope to reach 14 days and stretch it out further to 21 days.
I will join youz again in June.
Man I was at that stage in bed around 4am unable to sleep. Instead of leaving the bed and reading a book to get bored and fall asleep again or remain awake for the rest of the day I tured instead and followed my urges. I wish i didn't. I went up to day 11 in this challenge. I'm trying again.
Find what may be triggering your relapses, i.e. social media and do your best to eliminate that trigger
you got this
I started today. The urges do come but I cannot give in. I must rescue my future from dis monster. Enough is enough. The period before I went for about 10 days before I suddenly relapsed. Now am deadly committed. Thank u Lord Jesus
Hey guys!!!! I've got to DAY 13 of May and I'm pushing ahaed , day by Day !!!!
I'm looking forward to getting to end of this month and to be able to say that for the first time in my life I have not looked a P for one whole month...
Hope you are all well
Day 74 the urges are returning now but i am stronger and i am able to fight them without much effort.
I have never come this far before and i am not giving up now
Hey guys, I was feeling urges, wanted to go and watch some P. But I came here and it reminded me of my commitment with you about this month. Things are getting more quiet thanks to God and you! Thank you guys! We can do it together!
74 days is amazing man!! Keep going and fighting , you deserve a great life without P
Just getting current....PM free since Tuesday morning. Lots of life triggers and I'm in my most vulnerable time. Plans are to not be alone and to go to bed when my wife does and not get up in the middle of the night except to pee.
Feeking pretty good.
So I had a good 18 days of abstinence from masturbation and orgasm, but last night before going to bed I did my prayers and meditation and went to bed and then woke up in the middle of the night in half conscious mode, got some huge cravings for orgasm, but couldn't think very rationally, started some negative self talk like "I am a jerker masturbator, I wont cure, I should masturbate, etc.." and flipped myself down and rubbed against the mattress and orgasmed. I wish I had not done that, but it is okay it happened in half conscious mode. I know it sucks to reset the counter , but I will reset it anyways because an orgasm happened. I am thinking of putting some readings or signs or something in my bedroom that is readable in the dark like lighted frame poster in which I can write few lines maybe if next time I got triggered in middle of night I can read it and my senses and rational can kick-in and help me avoid a relapse.
No matter how many times I fail I am committed to throw this addiction out of my life.
I'm in and i intend to Last more than a month. Wish me Luck
I'm in. Starting (Day 0) on May 13, 2017.
Day 3 completed. Some urges and thoughts. I also know why these occurred
First thought surprises but I keep on going for all of us and for myself! This is my work for my better future!
Keep on rocking guys!!!