Selfsabotaging

Hey brothers and sisters,
i used porn to cope with problems since i am a kid till now.
With more or less succes in overcoming porn addiction i find myself dont really get into the right direction in those days. Not only with abstaining from but also in the rest of my life. And porn has a detrimental influence on it.

I tried it often with a lot of motivation, but didnt made it further than the 90 days challenge. Life is spiraling down again somehow, really dont know where to went except nofap forum here. Porn is really burning our lifes away. After a relapse i literally see the memorable things i would have done if i hadnt watch porn. Lets be serious, we gain our best moments in our life while we arent under influence of pmo. Pmo really takes the soul out of everything but as i write this i am the one who may be relapsing again in the future and it confuses me, its cognitive dissonance, i mean i really dont put myself down, if i would i would have been crazy already after all those relapses.

We may share a lot of similarities, well there are people who dont get past a week in years and there are people who make it done the first try, at least it is dependable on how addicted someone is and how disciplined etc..
Really dont do porn.

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