I will buy a gun, and I'll carry it around, why you ask? Well let me clarify, it will be a fake gun with no bullets and it will be in my pants, now why I am thinking of this. I believe that if I carry a gun even a fake one this will make me more confident, it will make my body language different and better. It is so hard for me to I attract a woman even though I am on Semen retention for 8 months. Self-confidence is key in attracting a women and they will say it them self, and you can do so many things to get confidence in long term or short term. Buying a gun is a short term desperate solution, but this shows you how man in my position can become so desperate, crazy and right all in the same time. I won't pull out a gun at any time, it will be with me whole time, alternative idea to feel confident is to have wallet full of money, expensive watch and nice clothes, but don't become that guy who takes it to the extreme, it needs to look casually, all of this is just a short term solution. Long term: independence, living alone, having a job, success, influence, mastery over some hobby or job. I will admit that I am going crazy but I will quote Seal "No we're never gonna survive, unless We are a little crazy"