Sensitive Penis But Unable to Give Myself an Erection

A few times recently I tested my penis by gently fondling it to see if I could give myself an erection. I don't consider this a relapse because I am not getting anywhere close to orgasm. But I know I need to be careful because it could quickly escalate into a relapse.

But the thing is, I've been unable to give myself a fully erection doing this. Only about 50-60% erect, but sometimes not even that. Maybe I still need longer to heal, or perhaps it is actually a good sign because maybe it means I have trained myself to no longer get aroused when touched by my own hand? Or maybe I still need visual stimulation? I don't know what to think really.

But one thing I have noticed is that my penis feels more sensitive than it used to, so I think that if I continued fondling myself into a full fap session I could prolong it for ages because it would feel more pleasurable in the early stages.

But to give this all some context, the last time I had an orgasm was back in February. I was with a prostitute who was awful and couldn't get an erection but ejaculated while soft, but then later that night I tested myself by fapping to porn and got fully hard. I've also had some nocturnal erections during the last few months, so it seems that my penis does physically work correctly.

 

So do I need to abstain for longer?

 

One other interesting thing: sometimes when in bed I cuddle up to my pillow and fantasise that it's woman. When I do this I often get an erection.

 

What is the longest you have gone without PMO? And when did you feel that you had healed?

 

I haven't been sexual with a woman since my last failed experience back in February, so it's all a bit of a step into the unknown. I get the feeling I will probably be fine if I'm with a woman I genuinely care about, but I just don't know until I'm actually in that situation.

 

I've done 88 days so far