September 18, 2017

This was the day where I had got an exetremely harsh rejection. This also sparked my PTSD when it comes to approaching the opposite gender. There was a girl who I found extetmely attractive. On this particular day, I had approached her. This wasn't the first time though. This patciualr female was nice to me sometimes, and treat me like shit other times. On this day, she was wearing a tank top that exposed a lot of cleavage. When I finally cuaght her attention after school, I had a brief conversation and asked her how she was doing and how her birthday was. After the brief encounter, I tapped her on the shoulder because I was about to give her a hug. All the sudden she screamed "get away from me" "just get away from me!" I played it cool and said "I just wanna talk!" After that, I ran home crying like a baby. I even screamed "I'm tired of the bullshit!!!!!". I'm ashamed of how I reacted, and I think I might've done something to spark the incedent. For the next few days I was exetremely depressed. The school consulers were no help either, they didn't call this girl down to the office to aplogize or explain why she did it. And no, I didn't have the balls to comfront this female about the incedent. I did snapchat her and told her about it, and she denies the incedent ever happened, and she doesn't remember.