Guys, I really could use some help and feedback. I’m in my early 40’s and have been struggling with porn addiction since adolescence. I didn’t realize I had a bonafide adddiction until I was about 27 and met with some therapists. Since then I’ve seen well over a dozen different therapists with little to no success. My addiction started out harmless by looking at Playboys then harder core material like Juggs and Hustler then moved on to porn movies. It started off when heterosexual sex then lesbian porn and in my early 20’s I got hooked onto transsexual porn. I’ve been addicted to that type of porn for about 20 years now and it’s been really tough to get off of it. At the same time it’s really got me confused about my sexuality. I don’t know if I’m gay, straight or bi. I’m single, never married and have only really had two serious relationships with girls in the past. I’m attracted to women when I’m walking around and a beautiful woman will definitely catch my eye and sometimes I can’t help but keep starring at her but there’s a disconnect between what my mind sees as a hot girl and my penis. Like my penis doesn’t respond, at all. I think all these years of getting off to such deviant porn has re-wire do my brain and what I’m turned on by. Since I’ve been dealing with this for sooooo long and seen sooooo many therapists with no success, I feel really hopeless. I’m hoping I can get some support and encouragement from some of you guys here that I can beat this and one day find the woman of my dreams that wildly turned on by emotionally, spiritually and physically and perhaps settle down and have a family of my own instead of being this sad, pathetic man with ambiguous sexuality who has absolutely no dating life.