Sexuality/Gender confusion and masturbation addiction

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ghhcogf

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I am a 15 year old male. When I was 13/14, I started watching porn and masturbating. Since then, I've been doing it pretty much every day. Back when I started, things were way different to what they are now. I remember only being interested in girls, but now, I find myself having fantasies of sucking dick and receiving anal as frequent as hourly. Recently (As in for the past 2 months or so), I've been getting very strong feminine feelings. These include wanting (And actually trying) to wear female clothing such as panties and dresses. I like the idea of having a sexy female body, like hairless legs, a round ass and boobs. I also think I'd enjoy having sex as a woman, like a guy giving me anal, or me giving a blowjob and swallowing the cum. Despite these feelings, I also like the idea of having a girl suck my dick, or giving a girl anal. I have a huge crush on a girl at school, and my interest in girls has not gone away. I can't see myself being in a relationship with a guy, only a girl. I don't know why these feelings are here, but I'm starting to think the porn has something to do with it. My second issue is that there have been other effects that I think masturbating too much has caused. The main one is large drop in eyesight. I used to have incredible eyesight (Before I started masturbating), but now I can't see writing on the board in class. I want to know why these feelings and effects are present, and how to possibly get rid of them. If you want any more information, I will gladly share it.

- Jamie
 
If your having issues with your eyesight, then this should be addressed as soon as possible. Don't leave it your eyes have to last a life time.

Your gender confusion might just be related to your PMO and will pass and confidence returns as you abstain from P.

If not, please don't view gender identity as a problem or and illness. I've been privileged to know individuals in the transgender community and they are normal, healthy people. Chances are what your fantasising about is all P related. If your still worried seek professional support or read up gender identity.
 
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If your having issues with your eyesight, then this should be addressed as soon as possible. Don't leave it your eyes have to last a life time.

Your gender confusion might just be related to your PMO and will pass and confidence returns as you abstain from P.

If not, please don't view gender identity as a problem or and illness. I've been privileged to know individuals in the transgender community and they are normal, healthy people. Chances are what your fantasising about is all P related. If your still worried seek professional support or read up gender identity.
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Thanks. I am definitely going to give up PMO. I appreciate your help.
 
ghhcogf said:
I am a 15 year old male. When I was 13/14, I started watching porn and masturbating. Since then, I've been doing it pretty much every day. Back when I started, things were way different to what they are now. I remember only being interested in girls, but now, I find myself having fantasies of sucking dick and receiving anal as frequent as hourly. Recently (As in for the past 2 months or so), I've been getting very strong feminine feelings. These include wanting (And actually trying) to wear female clothing such as panties and dresses. I like the idea of having a sexy female body, like hairless legs, a round ass and boobs. I also think I'd enjoy having sex as a woman, like a guy giving me anal, or me giving a blowjob and swallowing the cum. Despite these feelings, I also like the idea of having a girl suck my dick, or giving a girl anal. I have a huge crush on a girl at school, and my interest in girls has not gone away. I can't see myself being in a relationship with a guy, only a girl. I don't know why these feelings are here, but I'm starting to think the porn has something to do with it. My second issue is that there have been other effects that I think masturbating too much has caused. The main one is large drop in eyesight. I used to have incredible eyesight (Before I started masturbating), but now I can't see writing on the board in class. I want to know why these feelings and effects are present, and how to possibly get rid of them. If you want any more information, I will gladly share it.

- Jamie
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You might be not like this before the 1st time you mustarbated (you were still a straight guy). However, If so, it means one explanation: you watched lots anal porn and gay porn, your desire and needs made you imagined a lot to become one of them either recieving anal or providing anal. I had similar ones back time i mustarbate, but I am still straight after I quite it for years and years. it's the chemcial in your brain is either imbalanced or lacking so that your nerve can't think or function well (not a good thing in real life).
To understand more read my link below:
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/you-must-quite-addicts-this-is-why.87205/#post-703153

As an elder, i recommended you to walk away totally from any sexual stuff (web, tv, book, pic, your thoughts), or network (either online or real life).
at the end of website it has the recovery process.
Personally, I have my all recovery way, is to kill the dirty thoughts right after they showed up in my mind (never hurt yourself, it never works, but just kill the thoughts in your brain or ignore them if possible).
kill or avoid dirty thoughts, try to use time to read something clean and bright or help others who needed you.
 
I was like you a couple months back.

I have not masturbated for 3-4 months, and watched porn for 4-5 months.
When i started i would also have those fantasies, but right now, if i get any fantasies, it's with a girl ( I'm straight ).

So yeah, drop porn and you'll probably stop having those fantasies, and stop "liking boys" ( you never liked boys, it's an illusion from porn ).

But regarding your eye sight, i REALLY advise you to check a doctor. I don't believe PMO and eye sight are related, but either way, you need to take care of that.

Good luck :D
 
ghhcogf said:
I am a 15 year old male. When I was 13/14, I started watching porn and masturbating. Since then, I've been doing it pretty much every day. Back when I started, things were way different to what they are now. I remember only being interested in girls, but now, I find myself having fantasies of sucking dick and receiving anal as frequent as hourly. Recently (As in for the past 2 months or so), I've been getting very strong feminine feelings. These include wanting (And actually trying) to wear female clothing such as panties and dresses. I like the idea of having a sexy female body, like hairless legs, a round ass and boobs. I also think I'd enjoy having sex as a woman, like a guy giving me anal, or me giving a blowjob and swallowing the cum. Despite these feelings, I also like the idea of having a girl suck my dick, or giving a girl anal. I have a huge crush on a girl at school, and my interest in girls has not gone away. I can't see myself being in a relationship with a guy, only a girl. I don't know why these feelings are here, but I'm starting to think the porn has something to do with it. My second issue is that there have been other effects that I think masturbating too much has caused. The main one is large drop in eyesight. I used to have incredible eyesight (Before I started masturbating), but now I can't see writing on the board in class. I want to know why these feelings and effects are present, and how to possibly get rid of them. If you want any more information, I will gladly share it.

- Jamie
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Looking at more extreme P seems to be a common thing among people who have desensitized themselves by watching too much. I've been there. The only thing you can do about that is stopping PMO and healing yourself.

As far as eyesight, it is very common for teenagers to experience a drop in vision and it has nothing to do with masturbation. That's an old wives tale. The truth is, sometimes people need glasses as they get older and age doesn't discriminate.
 
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If you're in front of a PC screen all day it won't help your eyes that is for sure. Try going outside and exercising your eyes by looking at distances instead of staring at a screen all day. It makes a difference for me.
 
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