Shame

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James Mattingly

Fapstronaut
I tend to over analyze things. I tend to take things out of context. I tend to express myself with reckless abandonment and sure.... I want to be loved. Doesn't everyone? I am buried in deep deep shame. My life is a shameful work of art. Everytime I quit porn I am scared to go out... I fear people will see my suffering and know. I fear I am transparent-I'm a porn addict. I'm a freak. I'm not even worthy enough to have a cool addiction. I'm addicted to porn. It's just embarrassing... as embarrassing as I am worthless. And everyone can see it. Everyone knows it.
 
Take it one step at a time man, one day at a time. You will overcome these feelings. Believe it or not, most if not all of us here have been exactly where you are. You can always talk to us.

Just keep pushing yourself to get out of this. You can do it! Your social anxiety can be conquered and is probably partially because of your addiction.

And you're not worthless. There are people in this world that really care about you. I've never even met you, but I care too. I want to see you wake up in 10 days and be 10 days porn free and ready to conquer the day. Just believe in yourself.
 
James Mattingly said:
I tend to over analyze things. I tend to take things out of context. I tend to express myself with reckless abandonment and sure.... I want to be loved. Doesn't everyone? I am buried in deep deep shame. My life is a shameful work of art. Everytime I quit porn I am scared to go out... I fear people will see my suffering and know. I fear I am transparent-I'm a porn addict. I'm a freak. I'm not even worthy enough to have a cool addiction. I'm addicted to porn. It's just embarrassing... as embarrassing as I am worthless. And everyone can see it. Everyone knows it.
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First off, there's no such thing as a cool addiction. Addiction is addiction and everyone of them can ruin your life. Secondly, its natural to feel some shame, i think most of us do, but we cant let it consume us. The fact that we are here and trying to make a difference should make us proud of ourselves. Thirdly, as far as others noticing your shame and worthlessness, the only way they can sense that is when you feel it inside you so much that it takes over. If youre constantly thinking it then you will act accordingly and others will see it. You have to chill out and dont be so hard on yourself. Realize that youre trying to beat this thing and that youre not worthless just because you have an addiction. Take a deep breath and walk out the door with confidence and people will see that in you instead. Good luck.
 
Shame is definitely one of the worst side effects of P addiction. I’ve been there man. Here’s the deal- Shame tells you that you are bad. You are not bad. You have a bad habit. The fact that you even feel shame and or remorse means you are a good dude with a good heart. Many people are suffering with shame around this issue. You are not alone.
 
Arnuld said:
Shame is definitely one of the worst side effects of P addiction. I’ve been there man. Here’s the deal- Shame tells you that you are bad. You are not bad. You have a bad habit. The fact that you even feel shame and or remorse means you are a good dude with a good heart. Many people are suffering with shame around this issue. You are not alone.
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Well said.
 
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