Hating yourself is not only useless but destructive. Will the damage to her life be repaired if you destroy your own life in regret and sorrow? Hate what you have done, not yourself. Let your understanding of the evil acts you committed drive you to root out the evil in your own soul. If you have sons one day, or male friends now, teach them to be different, to treat women differently, especially women who are unable to defend themselves. If you hate yourself, eventually you will give in to despair, perhaps even think about suicide. This you must not do. Most likely, you will never have the opportunity to apologise to this woman, but by changing your life, you can make an offering of repentance to her. Hating yourself won't do her any good at all.