I have a real problem. For the last 2 years ive been going in some streaks, always relapsing sometimes binging then going back on. Im currently on day 20 no pmo. I have been having urges the last couple of days, especially today. Havent edged or anything, just urges in the mind. Heres the thing, my urges are not to watch porn. I can probably go ages without porn. My urges are to go on chatrooms and share pictures of girls i know including my partner and watching men comment on them. Im not sure why i get off on this but every single one of my triggers since i started all these streaks is related to this. Sometimes im pretending to be the girls im sending pics of...including my partner. These pics are either clothed pics showing the face or sometimes more intimate photos with the face cut out. I realise how bad this sounds and i am ashamed. This habit used to be alot worse, i once made a profile on a kink site with a whole gallery of pics of my wife (again without face) and enjoyed all the attention and degrading comments. I also made profiles on several dating apps. A real low was when i once shower her on skype to a man without her knowing. i have since deleted that profile and am off all similar sites (although i still think about them) but i had still been using chatrooms before my current streak and am constantly having thoughts about going back on and sharing pictures. Today im finding it so hard to resist the urge that i actually feel like a real addict and realised i have a big problem. This problem also triggered me to relapse on my longest streak of 58 days. Now that i have experienced the thrill im not sure how i can recover. Ive deleted all the pics but somehow always get them back from data recovery software. I try to figure out why i enjoy it. My partner is stunning and has a great figure so i guess its nice to have men lust after her knowing i have her? I dont know but youd think eventually i would tire of this but the urges just get stronger and stronger. Sometimes i think it would be better to be addicted to actual porn sites than this. This is affecting our sex like as sometimes when im with her im imagining her with other men and other degrading things. Not to mention i hate that im doing this behind her back. I really want to stop this but these urges pop up every so often and are so overwhelmingly strong. Im not sure if anyone has done anything remotely similar, would appreciate any sort of advice. I havent give in to these urges yet so im still on day 20 but what concerns me is ive been on longer streaks and have not recovered from this habit.