Shemale porn will eventually make you fall hard. (Explicit)

Discussion in 'Problematic Sexual Behavior' started by rexoo_o1, Sep 25, 2019.

  1. rexoo_o1

    rexoo_o1 Fapstronaut

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    I was watching porn for couple of days again
    first normal porn then-> reoleplay incest -> Sister> Mother> Eventually End up -> Shemale porn-> Then-> Amateure Shemale porn-> Femdom-> Prostrate Milking-> Last hardcore shemale fuckin guy Then- Orgasm Stop |

    Today everything was all good no urges r anything completely Clean. but just I sat for a quick meditation and suddenly a huge wave of urges came and in no time I was fingering my ass. Turned up my computer although I have blocked almost all porn sites and query through cold turkey but at that moment I realized I forget to block one so I went up to that address and search sissy porn played one for about 30-50 sec shut down PC and started fingering ass and like animal jerking off. So I cum in mouth swallowed some and Then realized what I just did then.

    It's not the first time this has happened; About two years I started watching shemale porn and then on things has become worst fuckin nightmare this sorta thing started happening.

    I'm not bi or gay or trans Also sissy hypno porn not my thing I don't people ordering me around but still here I'm fingering my ass and eating my cum what a fuckin joke.

    "A person will become what he thinks of"
    I guess thats true statement I don't remember the exact words or the peron said that but it's quite similar. Shemale porn definitely will turn you towards it if not then hardcore Femdom like pegging or more im not saying anything wrong with that but I'm not just comfortable.I yet to jerk off twice to get off the shame and guilt

    I don't know what I'm gonna get out of it but I just wanna to it - I guess this line proves my addiction level
    Fuck I'm fucked the word only came in my mind
    I'm sorry I'm kinda damage control situation now mistakes or if don't make sense.
    What should I do now
     
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  2. Get_It

    Get_It Fapstronaut

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    That's a big YIKES from me bruh.
     
  3. safa61947

    safa61947 Fapstronaut

    The quotation you mentioned is from Aristotle:

    "We are what we repeatedly do, so your excellence isn't an act, it's a habit".

    Tripping over guilt will make you no good. It makes everything worse and you might relapse again. Forgive yourself and accept yourself. This is the first step. You should work on that. Self-image and self-acceptance.
     
  4. rexoo_o1

    rexoo_o1 Fapstronaut

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    It is
    Thanks I will try
     
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  5. Souvent08

    Souvent08 Fapstronaut

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    You have taken an important step by sharing it with others. That’s part of accepting that there is a problem. I think we all experience downward spirals into some pretty crazy stuff. You will get better and just know that it will take time and a lot of energy. Do some reading on NoFap and start your journey to freedom from porn.
     
  6. rexoo_o1

    rexoo_o1 Fapstronaut

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    Actually it's not first time it happened before but I managed to bypass although this time I'm feeling more humiliated. Thanks for inspiration
     
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  7. Porn makes us do stupid things just like alcohol.
     
  8. Souvent08

    Souvent08 Fapstronaut

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    I see why you would feel humiliated. I would feel the same way. Thanks for being honest here. And congrats with being honest with yourself. That's something that not a lot of people can do.
     
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  9. rexoo_o1

    rexoo_o1 Fapstronaut

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    That is absolutely correct
     
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  10. icandothisinfinity

    icandothisinfinity New Fapstronaut

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    Don't worry brother. Porn addiction creates unusual behaviors in all of us. As previously mentioned, first forgive yourself.
    We are only human. Thank you for sharing, you are extremely brave for doing so.
     
  11. phwrancesco

    phwrancesco Fapstronaut

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    He should worry, and a lot too. Life is short and he's wasting it by putting fingers in his ass and swallowing his sperm.
    Try to wake up man, you can do it.
     
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  12. Roady

    Roady Fapstronaut

    Agreed. Good to see people who are awake.
     
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  13. Vendettana

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    Thank you for sharing. You're not alone. I did all that, I also tried to suck myself and eventually managed to touch the tip with my tongue. I still feel ashamed.
    Go for NoFap, stick to it. Whenever you feel an urge, think about how you will feel when you're finished.
    Remind yourself why you are doing NoFap, what the benefit will be (a healthy man), and what is the worst thing that could happen to you:
    you go for hookers who penetrate you, dominate you, make you eat your cum. You'll be alone or divorced, sad, depressed. Your children, if you have them, will be ashamed of you and will not even call you on your birthday. You're wife will betray you and go for a healthy man. You'll be broke and in debt, paying for Porn sites and hookers.
    Is it worth it? Think about it, the next time you type in the url of a porn site. Blockers won't help anyway, your mind can master it.
     

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