Shemale porn

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Searcher123, Apr 23, 2019.

  1. Searcher123

    Searcher123 Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys.
    I never thought I will speak about it.
    And I never thought I will actually share my story.

    Since I've seen so many people sharing.
    I feel much more comfortable
    I will tell you first about myself

    I am 24 years old
    I am very successful for my age.

    I am a salesman and I'm good at my job.
    I make 12000$ a month.
    I am very attractive and I can go out of any situation.

    I never had a problem getting a girl.
    I can get who ever I wish.

    My story:
    I am watching porn since I was 7 or 8 unfortunately.
    Of course I was not aware of what could possibly come out of that.

    When I was younger my brother used to touch me.
    I used to touch my sister.
    We never raped each other.
    Just curious touches.

    It happend a few times and then it stopped completely.

    We never spoke about it.
    But I do think about it many times.

    But I think it has an effect in my life.

    When I reached age 11.
    I saw a shemale add.
    I went in
    And since then I am addicted to this porn
    I watched many times sissy porn
    And I watched hypnosis.

    The things this porn makes me feel is unbelievable.
    Top pleasure.
    But once I'm done.
    I feel very guilty.

    I must say, I am not gay and I am aware of that.
    I never been attracted to males.
    I tried watching gay porn
    Never finished It.

    I took the shemales porn to the next lvl
    And I met a few transgenders.
    More than 20 actually.

    I must say. When i am in Healthy relationship with a woman.

    I will never think about shemales and I wouldn't watch it.


    I have very severe anxiety's nowadays
    I think about death a lot.

    It was way worse but now i can control it somewhat.

    I am in relation ship now.

    But I am in a relation ship with a girl which is very open minded.

    We have a dildo and she fucks me with it with a strap on. I do poppers when she do it.
    And I tell her to call me a slut.

    I fuck her aswell.

    I dont know what to do.
    And what is my next step
    I really love the sex with her
    I love it when she goes inside of me.

    But the feelings I get afterwards are bad.

    I just keep thinking of her fucking me and I want it all the time.
    I am aware I am really addicted.
    I dream about.it and I think about it alot.

    I always want it.

    I would.like to get some advice about what you think I should do.

    P.s I also told my girlfriend yesterday I've been with many TS in my love.
    She accepted it and said I should not be worried and it's all okay.

    This is what I like and it's fine.

    But she dont understand what I feel from the inside.

    Please help.
     
  2. GaryMayor

    GaryMayor Fapstronaut

    Don't be so cruel to yourself. You are here to get better. Tell me, what about your porn bahavior? Do you still watch porn a lot? You do not say what make you feel bad. Meeting TS people? Masturbation? Strap-on play with your girlfriend? What's going on?
     
  3. Searcher123

    Searcher123 Fapstronaut

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    Yes I do watch porn still.

    Watching ts porn makes me feel bad after
    Watching sissy porn makes me feel bad.

    The strap on play with my gf doesnt makes me feel nothing.. just pleasure.

    But I keep thinking about it the day after
    And i dream about it
    I just think I am very addicted

    I am very liberal person and i think all can eat what ever they want to eat.
    But when it comes to myself I feel guilty.
     
  4. GaryMayor

    GaryMayor Fapstronaut

    There is a great chance that you just do not understand your own needs and desires. First step is to stop watching porn for a while, like 90 days. Then you should see things more clearly and decide what is yours and what is in fact porn-induced. I suggest you also to focus on other sexual activities with your girlfriend, especially her favourites. You seem to be really inward-looking. Give her a pleasure, explore what she likes and what she want to try. There is nothing wrong with strap-on, but I think you should make a break just to have a better distance to asses it.
     
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  5. Searcher123

    Searcher123 Fapstronaut

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    So u think orgasms are okay

    Just no porn.

    What do u think about poppers ?
     
  6. GaryMayor

    GaryMayor Fapstronaut

    Is it some kind of drug? Then fuck it.
     

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