shemales porn, and wearing panties

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by lucas acerta, Jul 28, 2020.

  1. lucas acerta

    lucas acerta Fapstronaut

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    Hello guys

    my story its long but i will do it very very short because i want people to replay and help me with their opinion, so please know thatyour answer will help

    This is my first post here i've been follow the forum a year ago, but im not brave to talk i dont know why, any way im fappin for almost 9 or 10 years 3 to 4 times a week, sometimes on porn sometimes alone, the last 4 years become only on porn and almost everyday, then things get devloped i went from normal porn to shemales and there was the big step, before i married about 2 years i was super addict to shemales and i visited shemales escorts and i did sex with them more than 3 times, i enjoyed feeling the andrinaline in my body form visiting them i fuck them but i didnt get fucked because when i tried it it didnt work and hurt me and i didnt like it, but when i finish i get disguste from what i did then after i get married i stoped of cours, i tried to focus on our relation and our life it get better but after a month i went back to shemales porn and sometimes normal porn, my wife never catched me and thnaks god for that .

    a month ago i get disgust i hate it myself i was so down so angry so davestated i get angry fast on my amazing kind wife and i felt its going down, i was seeing my self fapping when my wife go even to the toilet i fap very fast before she back, dont get me wrong even our sex is AMAZING and she give me enaugh sex but i always feel i want to watch shemales or atleast porn atleast a naked ass i need to see nudes during every 24h, a month ago when i really stoped, i dress like a women when my wife went out i dont know why, then the cleaner women comes and i open the door for her with l'ingeri i dont know why and get sooooo disgust later and i felt myself very bad and i need it 1 week to recover because like i get very bad feeling to hurt this cleaner women i dont know if its hurt her but i felt my self i did something bad, because why should this women see me wearing l'ingeri i felt i abuse her, so immidietly i open NoFap i read somemotivation stories again and i start my journey im now in 30 days

    but this last 2 days i went to watch instagram infuluancers and bikinis i watch that more than 1 hour everyday and i get a hard sometimes but then i stop because i remember my self how i was and how i become, ibecome so healthy so happy, i had lower back pain but i feel so good, and many things get better even sex i feel my penis is so hard and when i come during sex i feel so good and i dont come fast

    now my probleme is i have so much taughts about shemales and crossdressers and the need to see naked ass and naked body, i need to see women and the shemale fucking someone or anything about sex but im fighting so much

    My question is now is that normal? to think about shemales and waering l'ingeri during im married man ? i swear im not gay i feel so disgust if even think about gay sex because i tried to watch and i couldn't

    and guys i need advices PLEASE to compleat this journey, and would i will recover or not ? i will go out from that or not guys ?

    Thank you so much guys for all your post and for you answers in advance

    BECAUSE OF YOU IM TAKING THE RIGHT WAY
     
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  2. Smoky

    Smoky Fapstronaut

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    Hello mate. It's hard, isn't it?
    We are all in the same boat. Some with less problems, some other with huge problems, but we are here all together. So, you have to be strong for your and for others that need help.

    Porn is bad. I do not care what kind of porn do you watch. If you love youself and if you want a good change in your life, you will need to stop watching porn and having dirty thoughts. I know is hard to control what we think but you have to do it.

    It does not matter what is right o wrong. What really matters is that you have realised that you have a problem. Can you imagine being unaware of this? Congratulations man, you have already made a huge step.

    You can recover but only if you do not lie to yourself.
    Read the previous line as many times as needed. If it has no sense for you now, do not worry at all. You will understand it later.

    You have an amazing wife that I'm sure she loves you.
    You have no idea how many people wishes half of what you have. So stop watching porn. For you and for her.
     
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  3. SlayTheBeast

    SlayTheBeast Fapstronaut

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    Hello, you seem to be really obsessed with sex and I think it can't be healthy for you. I would encourage you to ask yourself a question, why is sex so important to you? May it be that you are running away from something? Maybe you have some unresolved problems that you fear facing and find escape in sex?

    I think you can recover. But if you are addicted it's almost impossible to recover alone. I would encourage you to seek help not only on the internet, but also in person, if possible. Maybe there is a sex addiction recovery group somehere near you?
     
  4. Maybe you should try to talk with her and there's a chance that you will be able to get rid of the guilt of watching porn while in a relationship. I should not or I'd say , Do not take a huge step of leaving porn just now , try to reduce it from step by step for example in real world u don't stop a car directly from 100kmph to 0 , u use brakes slowly n slowly till you reach a reasonable speed where you can fully apply the brakes similarly take it slowly as it can be seen ur brain has been fed by dopamine overdoses for many years and if u try to completely eliminate the supply its natural ur brain would choose different paths (alcohols,drugs...) which will make it even worse for both of u.

    In short

    Take it slow... talk with her... don't rely on ur willpower alone try to minimize the usage ... slowly and slowly even if it takes 2-3months no problem..but remember the recovery should be like a curve not a abrupt straight line...
     
  5. I agree with him... you are lucky that you have such a nice loving wife... most of us here are mostly singles or divorced or got cheated on...
    Best of luck on ur journey...
    We'd love hear more from you....!
     

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